Another little update · 12:26pm Dec 6th, 2014
Well, it is soon a full year now since my burn-out began and I started treating it. I got therapy, anti-depressants and everything. Now, it seems like I am stable enough to start looking for work again. But with one crisis solved, an even bigger is comming.
There is one question left unanswered for me. One very big question: What am I going to do with my life?
I wasted four years training for a job I turned out unable to pull off just in the final year. Now I had the idea of applying for a new training as media designer. But problem is that this job is highly overrun. You need to study this and only the best of the best make it. Even then, many just don't find a job.
I don't know what to do with myself. I need some basis I can build on, but it seems so difficult for me to find the right thing. I badly need a training and I badly need a fixed route in my job life. But what? I am completely lost right now and it feels like no amount of therapy can help me with that. My worst fear is that I end up long-term unemployed and need to live off the purse of the government as a poor sod who failed in life. It's hard to be optimistic when you are walking into a completely unclear future.
And heck no, Twilight Sparkle! You ain't got the right to complain in a whole song that you don't know where your life is going to! You are a princess with tons of friends, a heroine of a whole land!
Anyway, now that we are at ponies, I guess we can also talk about my books. I want to apologize that the last chapter has taken so long to publish. I could tell you all the things that went wrong for this to happen, but I don't want to spill out excuses. I certainly will stick to my promise to finish the last book, that is for sure. Other than that, I am not sure about anything anymore. I just want to move forward in life, in any direction possible.
Do you have any suggestions or questions? Do you have anything you would like to say? I am always very much looking forward to read your comments. Also, thank you very much for showing your interest in reading these blog posts. It surely isn't a normal thing for me at this point anymore to have anyone reading anything I create at all.
Hmm~ I haven't seen you in a long time, eh.
Also, there's nut much advice I could give you other than go with the flow. It's what I've always done.
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Well easier said then done when there is no flow going on. Im stuck and I certainly am not the kind of person who does what everyone else does.
While I don't have much for advice myself other than that a entry level job (that doesn't require college) to at least be a small first step, which is something I'm still working on. So I don't fully know such an outcome, though for all I know maybe you are already working on this.
Well, at the very least, I give you my hope that you can work your way to where you want to be. Good luck and best wishes!
Ever thought of going somewhere like South Korea or Russia to teach english? No qualification needed other than english background, you get a nice salary and get to see the world. Not knowing the native language is actually a benefit
google it 
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Oh dear I really wouldnt want that.