I'm sorry I failed you... · 8:37pm Nov 10th, 2014
Hey guys. Ok, first things first: I'm sorry for wasting your time with this blog. You all no doubt have enough problems in your lives without me waltzing in and dumping my stupid little issues in, and I should've remembered that. However, I just really wanted to say that I'm sorry, and sometimes that sort of desire just takes over common sense, y'know?
Anyway, on to the actual apology: I'm sorry that I'm not enough. When I came onto Fimfiction, I only wanted to make someone's life a bit better, be it through writing, critiquing, or by just being a good friend. However, when I look at it, I can't find a single place where I succeeded in even something as simple as that.
First, my stories. I've tried my hardest to create a strong story that people will look at and say: "Man, that was incredible!", "Whoa, I didn't expect that", or even "That really was something I thought was pretty good." However, when I submit these stories to groups like RG or TL, I usually get the same basic reaction: Painfully average. I have been rejected from these "higher" groups so often that by this point, I've just gotten numb. I wanted to create a good story. I have failed in that respect.
Next, by critiquing. I've really wanted to help out authors who are struggling with their early stories by giving them some advice on how it could be improved. I've done this for a few stories, but I very rarely get a response. Oftentimes, my advice is ignored, and the same problem I pointed out appears again in a later tale. I've tried to advise, but rarely does it ever sink in. Ergo, I have failed at assisting.
And finally, as a friend. I have been trying to push past my problems to help out people who need it, despite me not being that great at it. While it hasn't been a total failure, as I do usually get a thanks or something for it, it ultimately doesn't mean much when I consider who my friends on here actually are. Who are they? How have I helped them? What have I done for them that wasn't done by someone else? Don't get me wrong, I don't think that I'm totally alone here, as there are a couple of people on this site who I get along with really well who also seem to care about me, but for the most part, it feels like I'm just another face in the crowd saying "there, there." I can only think of one big thing I've done on this site to help someone else, but that was such a long time ago that I have to wonder if she even remembers what I did. Is there anything else? Did I offer to edit? Did I just say something nice? Have I made anyone's life better? Unfortunatly, I can't think of any instances where I contributed. I wanted to be a good friend. I have failed in that respect as well.
Seriously, I have failed in so many respects that's it's downright laughable. I'm not a good friend, I'm a 'painfully average' writer, and worst of all, I'm actually wasting my time and yours with this apology! Not only have I failed at everything I wanted to do on this site, but I'm actually being counterproductive and releasing a long blog about me failing! Ugh, I really feel pathetic right now. I seriously don't know... I can only hope that you guys don't hate me...
I'm sorry I failed you,
Charles Spratt
Amigo why would you be sorry your awesome your fics a well written and an enjoyable read. Especially your fic Their True Desires now that was a work of art, so good it's had a bunch of ideas for fics spinning through my head, for that I have to say thank you man. No one's a Steven King or Edger Allan Poe, you should proud of what you make and the readers who actually enjoy it. No ones perfect but trying is always a good thing.
Another face in the crowd? Seriously? You were somehow able to get over the fact that one of my fics was about 9/11, which is almost unbelievable, and then you actually devoted the time to thinking up an alternative and incredibly better ending to it. That is truly unbelievable. And remember that work you did on my fic Now You See, all of the editing, the critiquing, the time and effort you put into perfecting someone else's flawed-from-the-start fic? You're complaint about it being too disjointed was addressed in the first paragraph, making this fic that much better. I haven't read your fics, and I might in the near future, but if they are so "painfully average", why does Their True Destinies have 60 more likes than dislikes? The fact that I haven't seen your work in the featured box is irrelevant, lots of good fics are left to collect dust on this site.
I probably won't convince you of anything, but voicing your problems isn't a flaw, it's growth in character.
You've helped me out a lot, and I don't think you realize it.
Ok listen hear buster and let this young guard say somethings first of dont listen to what other people say about your work I know you submitted them but if you think your work is good then thats all you need and you do have a story that people think is great so great that most of the people who read it and said it was great are still waiting for the sequal and yes I mean Their True Desire, and I have been meaning to read more of your stuff but I have so much Im trying to stay in front of so sorry about that. Second if you give someone advise some may take it but thats the people you should care about if someone dosent take your advise who cares you tried being helpful and you didnt fale them they failed everyone who read their story. Fianally its hard for me to explain this but no matter how insignifcent something you say to someone may seem it helps them like this comment to me its just me talking to one of my favorite peoople to talk to on this site but to you its 15 year old kid tring to help you out I have written 1 terrible story and I got some people who liked it and some who didnt those people who liked it me and them had some conversations and the people who didnt never talked even though I told them to tell me whats wrong with it and the end was so bad I made another chapter saying sorry for how bad it was. So dont say you failed at anything just that you found a longer way to succed anyway explain how you feel after reading this if you dont mind
Okay, first of all, thanks guys. No really, thank you greatly. I've been feeling really down and depressed for a while now and have been trying to find something to boost me up. As this blog post probably shows, I wasn't able to find much of anything, which is probably why I began to think of myself as a failure. I'm just glad that there are people who actually care enough to reply.
2586638 A work of art? Really? Wow, that's something I didn't expect to hear. Yeah, I probably should be proud of it, but after it getting rejected several times in a row, you begin to believe that it's bad yourself. However, I will admit that I did forget two things. One, these groups only accept the top 5%. And yes, it's not in that bracket, but does that make it bad? I'm pretty sure that the answer is no. The 2nd thing I forgot was that for every person who gave it a thumbs down, there were roughly 7 people who gave it a thumbs up. It's not like the world hated it, but I ended up forgetting about that. Kind of wrong of me, I guess. And finally, yes, no one's a Steven King or Edgar Allen Poe (except for Steven King and Edger Allan Poe, I suppose.) I knew I wouldn't get that kind of resignation for it, but oh well, I just constantly forget the overall voice because of the degraders. I'm idiotic like that, I suppose.
2586703 Wait, that comment on your 9/11 story had that big of an effect? Geez, I just saw it as giving some advice, and hoping that the author (unlike the last few) wouldn't ignore it (which you obviously didn't). As for the editing... well that's pretty embarrasing, that I forgot about that almost immediately after I finished doing it
. And yeah, I suppose that there isn't a need for my stories to be in the featured box (although one of them did make the popular box, so it did get close.) I guess I've just got so much rejection for them recently that I forgot that there were a ton of other people who actually liked my stories in the first place. I suppose it's just an issue of me not knowing what I've actually done for others, in more respects than just one. I suppose I should keep that in mind more often. And no, I didn't realize how much I'd actually helped you out. I should probably keep that in mind, y'know?
2587056 Ah yes, Their True Desires. Man, that story comes up a lot around here these days. Anyway, I guess I'll say the same thing here that I did to Alonzo: when your story has been rejected several times in a row, and each time by different people and groups, you sort of forget that the only reason it was submitted was because there were quite a lot of people who liked the damn thing enough for you to feel confident enough to submit it in the first place. I shouldn't have forgotten that, of course, but I did. Shouldn't have let it get to me. Oh well. 2nd, for other people, yeah, I really shouldn't be expecting everyone to actually acknowledge my comments, even though I do. I just really hate to see people constantly repeat mistakes, and at least would like some acknowledgement that I'm trying to help! Then again, this site does house some authors who won't take any advice to heart (I'm looking at you, zeldafand), and unfortunately, that applies to the majority of writers on here. So yeah, just know who's looking to improve, and who doesn't give a
. Seems like sage advice. And third... Wait a minute, WHAT? I'm one of your favorite people to talk to? Wha... Wow, I did not know that. Anyway, I suppose when we're on the internet, it's impossible to know how much you've truly helped someone with anything, since we're all anonymous and all that (well, most of us are anonymous. Some of us take the route of saying what our real name is right away 'points to self'). Regardless, I guess we can really impact someone a lot, even though we don't know it. It's just... I wish I knew. I wish I knew how much I was really helping. I wish I didn't have to rely on whether or not the other person decides to comment to know what I have done, if anything. Then again, I guess it's important to remember that, for the people who I know I have impacted, I should never forget about them. They really can carry a lot more weight than I probably give them credit for, which you guys have shown.
Anyway, thanks guys. I'm not going to say that I feel perfect now (because that would be a lie.), but I will say that I feel a lot better now than I did yesterday. I'll say it one more time: Thank you.
2587557 glad to be of help and keep up those fics amigo. Also a quick heads up when I finish my spin off of Their True Desires I would be honored if you would give it a ready hen I publish it and tell me what you think. Stay strong.
2587557 You shouldnt thank us as I say to most people who like some help and thank everyone who comentied we all did what most people should do help our fellow man up and yes you are one of my favorite authors to talk to on my list your tied for 1st with Ghoust Dust and TDR. If you need some help with anything thats bothering you or just need an opinuion on a fic just send me a message I know what shit can do to you...... Wow I think this is one of the few comments were I didnt use a pony swear to mask a real swear oh well