Sigh... · 7:08pm Oct 15th, 2014
Sigh... Have you ever felt betrayed before? I'm just asking because... well, because that's how I feel right now. Let me explain:
A few hours ago, I got into an argument with someone is very close to me. We kept on it for a bit, until he said something that really hit me in the gut. His words were, and I quote:
"At least I don't waste all of my time writing useless pony fics that no one will ever care about!"
The second after he said that, I stopped dead in my tracks, and started to tear up. I couldn't say or do much of anything, and instead kept quiet as we went our separate ways. However, once I was out of everyone's sight, I just broke down and started crying.
Now, I bet I know what you're thinking: "This guy was just a phony. There are people like that in the world. Why was it worth breaking out and sobbing over?" Well, let me put it this way: this wouldn't have been a big deal, if he weren't such a big part of my writing. You see, this guy (his name will not be mentioned, because of privacy.) was one of the biggest supporters of my writing for the past couple months. He not only acted as a pre-reader of sorts, but also gave me advice on how I could improve stories, helped me out with choosing ideas, and was the one person I could always go to when I felt unsure about my writing skills. To give an example of how influential he is to me, let me say this: if it weren't for him, I never would've published Their True Desires on Fimfiction if it weren't for him. He was the one that convinced me that the horror story I had written in a couple of nights was not only intriguing, but also pretty dang creepy. If he hadn't have said that, I wouldn't have had the guts to upload that story, since I had felt really certain that it was going to bomb. Same goes with Something is Missing. When the story got a bad reaction at first (2 likes, 4 dislikes), I was ready to can the idea. However, he stepped in and gave me the reassurance that he personally enjoyed the concept, as well as the execution, and said that if I kept it up, it would have more thumbs up again in no time (which was correct, since the story rose up to 9-5 by the next day.) So yeah, he was my backbone, and the one person who helped me out of my doldrums when I was so down, worried, or disappointed that even I couldn't push myself back from the brink. And then that same person basically tears all of my devotion in writing to shreds during that argument, making me feel like the one thing I do that I feel makes a difference is worthless. All I can say to him is: 
Cheers... 
I know how you feel Iam not going into detail but dont get down on yourself if you had an issue with something thats getting you down you didnt just have the one person to talk to you have an entire community to try and help you out. I know what your friend is going through right now when your in the heat of an argument you say stuff you dont mean but it comes out to hurt the other, so Ihave just this to say
come on chris smile smile
(still no combo of a sad smile face thing over there or an arrow)
2535742 Thanks... I hope you're right on this one.
By the by...
Who's chris?
1. talk to someone no matter who it is just someone who can relate to you
2. make yourself smile or someone eles
I have done both of these and instead of killing myself when I was 10 I have a god damn good life
That was an incredibly dick move he pulled on you. He should feel ashamed.
Oh my god, what have I done? I had no idea that you were affected this badly by the conversation. I'm sorry, bro. I never meant to hurt you like this. The truth is I love your fics, and they are something that a lot of people care about. You are one of the greatest men anyone could ever know, and I am honored to call you my brother every day. I know this can never make up for what I said to you, but I can only hope that this will help in the best way possible. So keep writing and keep smiling bro, and know that no matter how bad things seem, I will support you to the bitter end.