A lot of typing ahead. · 12:02am Sep 22nd, 2014
So, One-Shotober starts in about ten days. How many one shots have I completed in preperation? None.
Too much personal stuff going on right now. I'm in the perfect dark mindset for the stories I want to type, but it's just finding the motivation to open a blank word document.
How many times have you stared at a blank Word document? The blinding, white emptiness is overwhelming, especially knowing that I will be in that same spot--that same first step--thirty more times. Sometimes I just take a Shakespeare quote and paste it in the top half of the page. It's much less intimidating.
I don't think I can do One-Shotober, but I do have my 31 unique story ideas. Making them all one shots would not do them justice. I vowed no new multichapter stories until ISHNBTP is complete, though. Maybe I should just finish it up and get that out of the way.
I'm not sure if I would be happier completely alone all the time so I could type without interruptions, or if I should go enjoy my life while I'm still young. The whole "brony" thing is actually starting to...agitate me. Certain sects of the fandom in particular. And the way others view us based on those people. I value my writing, and put so much effort into it, but in actuality, I'm ashamed of it. That's the real reason I canceled Chasing Dreams. I let some of my real world friends know what I had written, because I was proud of it...and they judged me--viewed me differently because of what they knew about bronies.
My editor made a comment recently that hurt me...a lot. I won't even say she's my editor anymore. She won't even read my work anymore, nevermind edit it.
Sorry, went off on a tangent. Anyway...
I'll still be typing pony stuff because it means a lot to see even a few of you reading it and enjoying it. I don't see Meta notifications as often as I used to, and the best way is to publish a new story. So, even if I only finish one at first, it'll give me the ego boost to keep writing.
I'm sorry to hear about your friends/editor. In a way though, this shows you who your real friends are; the ones that accept you, no matter what, not...well, them. I for one enjoyed Chasing Dreams immensely, was sad to see it cancelled, but I understand. I can honestly say though that you should feel proud of that one, like you should for just about all of your work, because it's great! Keep writing Final Draft, your stories are quite the treat
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I always do that... SIDEQUEST was written by selecting a song, titling the chapter that, and trying to recapture the meaning and feel of the song with the events (Fillies and Gentlecolts was a llot of braggarty, and where her issues first came to light 'your eyes ans your ears will be bleeding. please check to see that you're still breathing.')
I've also given little mind to haters, but then aagain that fits nicely with my punk mindset. If you choose to look down at mme for tthe way I dress, the things I like, and the way I speak and act, you can get fucked.
I have never told anyone at my job about me being a brony writer because I know they'll never understand. I'm not ashamed of what I do because the longer I stay in this fandom, the more story ideas I get. Why would I leave something so provocative?
As for people not getting the fandom and choosing to believe only the negative stuff the media tells them...speaking as a guy who used to be heavily into furry fandom, I know what it's like to have people judge you with no real clue as to what they are talking about.
You can't help what other people think, especially when they don't think at all.
Just keep on doing what you love to do. Keep writing. Keep living.
Stay Pony.