One of the Reasons Why I'm Still Alive Today

One of the reasons why I'm still alive today are to see the happiness on other people's faces when I help them.
One of the reasons why I'm still alive today are so that I can help my friends no matter their situation, because I'm apparently their life guru.
One of the reasons why I'm still alive today are so that I can help anyone see past their mistakes or their doubt and look forward to the future rather than down at their mistakes or back at their past.

One of the reasons why I'm still alive today are so I can make people smile.

I sent this message to one of my best friends after months of hardly talking to him.

I still remember the first day we met, you know. Almost 4 years ago.

I was searching through minecraft servers and I just happened to see a neat little name; Laser Powered Gaming.

I had initially thought it was this big ol' group and that I would just die down in the chat and, within a few days, leave. I always felt that I never belonged in big groups of people, they always made me feel uncomfortable.

Then I found out that you all were just a group of a few friends. You have no idea how relieved I was, but at the same time, how sad I was that a cool-named group like this was so small.

The first few days, I was nervous. Hardly spoke as far as I remember, but it was fun being around people that really knew each other. People that had known each other for months, if not years already.

Sam was one of the greatest members, and I wish I could still talk with him sometimes. I don't know where he is, I hardly see him online anymore. I wish I could hear what he sounds like, all grown up.

I remember the server changes, the map changes, meeting Ward, dealing with Jandel and his friends and his shenanigans. I'm almost curious as to how he's ended up being so far.

I remember the first day I dragged CrazE into this whole ordeal. I remember the first time he messaged me asking about Ward and her situation and telling me how he started to like her.

I remember you and me playing all sorts of games together. Terraria, Minecraft, Dungeon Defenders and Aion being the most memorable. The nights that we stayed up together playing games and watching anime, or even sitting there in silence together.

Four years.

It's been a damned long time, and I remember how we used to be, and how we've grown, how comfortable we've gotten with each other around. How many times we've cried to each other about life, family or anything else.

How many times we've cheered each other up by playing those games and laughing at the stupidity we'd brew up.

Almost makes ME cry thinking about all the shit we've been through, and that we're still talking today.

I just want you to know that you were the best thing to happen to my life. Without you, I wouldn't have been able to play any of those games, I wouldn't have met Sam, or Fizzy, or Blobber, or Ward, or CrazE, or Breakd0wn, or Palebomb, or Rumbeef, or Shizi, or anyone that you can think of that you and I met online.

You made me who I am today. You told me to grow up, grow a spine, mature a little here and there, and... I did. Eventually.
Don't look at me like that.

You were the best thing.
I've ever known in my life.

Thank you for getting to know me.
Thank you for playing games with me.
Thank you for buying games for me.
Thank you for being who you are.
Thank you for getting to know me and still accepting who I am.

Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for all these years.

Thank you for being my friend.

Happy birthday.

Then... I look today, and he changed his Skype bio.

((Insert Incomprehensible Babbling Here.)) - Projected "Disembodied" Voice