May
5th
2014
Hmm.... · 12:55pm May 5th, 2014
Have you guys ever just sat down and evaluated your life and life choices? I have.... I hate every moment. Oh well. I can make it better eventually
you all post a comment i guess. I would like to know what life choice you cherish and one you regret.
I cherish my decision to challenge my parents when I think they are being jerks and punishing me for trivial shit.
I regret.... All my attempts at suicide... I realize that alot of people actually WOULD feel bad if I were gone. It is those people who make me stronger for being here.
Thank you 
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Evening Storm · 336 views
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I'm too young to have made permanent life choices. This last week has been hard for a few people in my church because of suicides. The after-effects are terrible. A bunch of girls, including myself, were crying. Now, I didn't know the people but...It's just sad. I hate seeing my friends like that and if you left, I would cry.
I regret everything... I don't think I'm proud of a single thing I've done in life... save helping people out of depression and suicide...
2079558 there must be at least one thing your proud of
2079688 Like I said... I'm proud of talking people out of depression... but not really anything else. I've done some pretty terrible things...
2079714 i doubt they are that bad
2079717 Don't doubt the things I am capable of... I have done terrible things, and they haunt me everyday... and my whole life I have done nothing good...
2079726 incorrect my dear friend
2079732 Really? Care to explain?
2079759 Smiles is one example
2079766 Smiles?
2079726
I don't mean to interrupt, but we've all done some bad things, and I won't presume to say that I know what you're going through, but I have been put through the ringer myself. I will say this though, a person is inly truly terrible when they allow themselves to be, and seeing as you've talked people out of suicide, that leads me to believe that there is indeed good in you.
I apologize if it seems wierd speaking to you like this, since we never met before, but I felt ot was necessary to say something
2079766
Hey Storm. Sorry about my outburst last time we spoke
2079780 Nope, not weird at all.
I see what you're saying, but I feel as if I must redeem myself... from all my mistakes and the terrible things I did... I can't live my life with this burden, so I have to find a way to get rid of it.
2079784
I'm glad it's not wierd
but I will say this: nothing is beyond redemption when you truly seek it
2079782 what outburst?
2079774 SmileHDFan?
2079800 Oh. Yeah... I'm not saying that wasn't a good thing, and that what I was trying to do there was wrong... but the bads far out way the goods in my life... like... a mountain compared to a pebble...
2079798
Ah, in that case NVM
So what's new?
2079808 ...PM me... so you can tell me what you were referring to please
2079806 When even the darkest soul does good it proves that even the smallest good deed may cancel a history of bad
Keeping with the topic, I have three regrets that haunt me more than the rest: 1) Allowing myself to be so consumed with rage that I beat a person within an inch of their life, 2) Watching a young worker die in my arms, and not being able to do anything about it, 3) Being forced to take a life to preserve mine.
Greatest achievement...Breaking free from my past
2079818 Not so... if I do one good thing in my life, yet the rest is filled with evil, that good I did won't help me at all...
2079822 that isnt what i said. good deeds fix the past. not the future
2079820 1 and 3 are understandable. 2 couldnt be helped. as you just said. you were unable to do anything and therefore was not even remotely your fault
2079828 my past, present, and future need fixing
2079833 the past is over and the future is blank. all you can do is work with your now
2079843 I carry all this weight from the past into my present, using to lay my foundation for my future...
2079848 because you let your past control you. you must break free
2079856 How? If you new what I did, you wouldn't forgive me...
2079872 try me
2079875 I'm sorry, but no... I can't...
2079876 hun i have no room to judge or criticize
2079879 I can't... I don't want you to know...
2079886 why not?
2079891 because I just... the things I've done, I don't want to tell anyone... it's REALLY personal stuff...
2079894 how do you plan on getting over it if you cant share your pain
2079898 I'll deal with it myself... i'm fine...
2079899 no your not. im your friend aren't i?
2079901 Yes
2079902 then please hun... let me help you
2079905 I don't talk to anyone about my problems... not even my family...
2079910 maybe you should start.
2079917 I don't know... I just can't... it's too... too embarrassing...
And who's been disliking all of your comments?
2080065 well you can always talk to me
and i have no idea. doesnt really bug me though
2080090 ..... i dont know what to say to that...
2082008 Thanks for the offer, and i might take you up on it, but not now... my mind is just... it isn't ready...
2082243 well im forever here for you my dear friend *hug*