F**k it, its my blog... I'll post what I want...

I want to lay down in a corner and cry like a little bitch. The last few days (10 to be precise.) have been physically and emotionally draining. Comic con ST.L, my family, bug bombing, my tablet having to be fixed, moving more than a couple of heavy tv's and box's, now my Dad's accusing me of not caring about my other side of the family...

I haven't felt this horrible sense I was considered clinically depressed by my doctor. I went through two years of that shit. Two years of operating more like a goddamn machine than a human. Two years of contemplating suicide.

And fuck it if haven't thought about it again tonight. I just want this shit to be over...

I don't want to deal with it....

Tomorrow I will post the first chapter of FYAYR!...

Maybe I'll feel good enough to finish chapter two of OH COME ON?!

Now, I'm going to go and try to cheer my sorry ass up with some ice cream, halo 2, and F**k You, by Sleeping With Sirens.

Ok, maybe I forgot to add that I will be watching pony anthology 3... that shits usually pretty good at making me smile...

Also, depression sucks just as much as I remember...

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[Nativeknight]

Hang in there man