I'm Scared

Dear Princess Celestia,

Today marks the end of the exciting part of writing fanfiction (that part where you spend weeks basking in the glory of your idea and daydreaming about the adoring comments, followers and awards you'll receive immediately upon submitting) and the cold, cruel hand of reality is starting to set in. This Saturday, the first chapter of Plans Change is going to be posted, whether I'm happy with it or not - though after such a long editing period, I'd better hope I'm happy with it! At the moment, however, it sits in an abandoned browser tab, gdocs comments covering the right hand side of my screen as I stare at the thousands of little phrasing and pacing issues that bug me still.

There's something extremely daunting about posting this fanfiction. This is by far the largest project I've ever embarked upon, and I've put both my pride and self-confidence on the line as encouragement to finish. But I worry, as I always do, that whatever I write - however many times I edit it to make it just as good as it possibly can be - it won't be enough. I worry that nobody will see it, that those who do will hate it, and that I will be a failure of a writer. And I'm still not sure how to cope with that.

They say look for the light at the end of the tunnel - but right now, I'm faced with the mouth of the tunnel, from which I cannot even see the light, and I'm not sure I'm brave enough to go in.

Your faithful student,
Quill Scratch