Tough Times · 8:23am Mar 14th, 2014
Fair warning, this blog is quite serious and personal. I ask that anyone reading to be respectful to myself an what I'm about to say. It's your choice whether or not to read, but I would highly appreciate it if you did.
Now then. *throat clear*
A few of my closer friends may know that, for over a year now, I've been dealing with a serious case of depression. For anyone who has never experienced depression themselves, let me put it into perspective. Depression is more than sadness. Depression makes you feel a crippling weight on yourself, both physically and mentally. Depression makes you feel weak, insignificant, and vulnerable. Every bad thing that happens hits much harder than it would have otherwise. It makes you want to give up on everything and just wallow in misery.
This has basically been me during the majority of 2013 till now. I know it doesn't always come off as such. Thing is, I hate to drag people down with my problems, or to always feel down. It's not fun. I try to take things in stride and be strong, but it's harder some times than others. Much, much harder.
I've been dealing with feelings of loneliness, family problems, money issues, feeling ignored, questions of self worth, and a lot of worry about the future. Things have been looking bad for a long time and I was just hoping they'd sort themselves out, but that's far from the case. If anything, they're at one of their lowest points yet, and I'm genuinely scared about what'll happen.
I really don't know what to do. I really need someone to talk to, or maybe someone who can offer some advice. Anything to lighten up this terrible situation...
I' here to talk if you want
I'm not very good with cheering people up, but I'm available to talk if you want.