it's strange, I got through the description and introducing the two, but now, just as Rarity is supposed to make the first strike, I can't bring myself to write it... It could be because there are many other stories to read that I really want to read, but still... I'll probably finish it sone time tonight. I'm just glad. I don't have aA Lovely, Precious Rainbow. · 3:12pm May 16th, 2012
after a week of avoidance of the subject, I began to get my courage back. I began to watch the show again. But I didn't read. I never read for that week. but then, shortly after that first week, I decided to search through my email, deleting thing that were unnecessary, and hoarding the interesting things into file and general spring cleaning.I then happened upon my friend's email once again. remembering his personality, I knew that he would not do that to me, not so soon after becoming a fan, which I had shortly before he sent it to me. so I decided I would give it a chance, and began to read it.
the first section was so hard, as I remember, seeing those familiar lines again, the vivid pictures bubbling up from the depths of my consciousness.
I was scared. I was honest to go scared that this story would take the last of my will as a fan away and replace it with nothingness and apathy for the whole community. but I had resolved to myself shortly after reading the first three sentences that this thing of a story would not stand between me and my fandom.
And then... it got better. so much better! i felt renewed. as I got through the first part and to the hospital, I found the depression creeping in around the fringes of my conscious mind, I felt that need to get away. but as the story enveloped me, as the words flowed from the page, I began to feel like everything would be okay. there was tragedy, and there was hope, and there was joy! I was back!
the words were flowing before my eyes in a stream, constant and never-ending, and it was good! I kept reading and the love, in such a short time, with the flow of the story, the conflicts of Rainbow's heart, it exploded into a whole new world for me, and i began to read others again. in no time at all, that list of 11 different stories i had to read was gone. though Cupcakes was still there, i no longer cared, and looking back on it now? i thank Sgt. Sprinkles for sending me on a trip that will affect my writing from now and forever, and giving me a story I truly will never forget, and never regret reading. Yes, it terrified me and almost broke me of my fandom, but all the same it lead me on a recovery journey that to this day i remember in crystal clarity. after only recently finishing the A Precious Rainbow and all of it's side stories (and the shipfics that became somewhat part of the story, though not the recovery, more of an aftermath, give em a look if you get the chance.) i can tell you I shuddered in disgust when i read The Journal (you can find all that i mention here either linked on milesprower06's fanfic.net page. being a student myself, i can tell you that if your school firewall block fanfiction.net, than just go to m.fanfiction.net. remember to get the "M"!) and i don't suggest reading it unless you're truly hardened from the previous reading of Cupcakes, but it is a fantastic side story, and manly tears were shed, shockingly, in pinkie's honor, and i suggest that you read it and read it all.
okay, that's enough for this installment. In my next post, I'll elaborate on the side stories to the APR series and after that, I guess I'll start through the shipping fics that come after.
