Some Rant · 4:04am Nov 8th, 2013
Sometimes I just wanna lay down and cry. Not because my life is awful. No, that's not it at all.
I wanna cry because others have such horrible lives. They go through so much bullshit everyday and some even to the point where they wanna kill themselves. It makes me feel so bad that people have to go through those things.
I even wish I could trade places with at least one of them. I mean, nothing is wrong with my life. I'm perfectly happy. I have great friends, a wonderful family, and I'm absolutely never bullied. Hell, I've never even lost someone before in my life!
But if I could, I would absolutely trade with someone else. If giving up my happiness means others can be happy, I'd do it without a second thought.
But I can't. Others have to suffer, and it kills me inside to the point where I just wanna cry.
Hm, I understand this sentiment pretty well, actually. Though my life is far from perfect, I find myself extremely selfish after a bad day and I say something along the lines of "UGH this was the worst day of my life!" Knowing very well I've had worse, and that a lot of others have too. I suppose the only thing you can really do is try to give back to hose who are less fortunate. If you have happiness in your life, try giving some of that to someone else.
Alice, I understand exactly how you feel about this matter as well. Although, I have been through some of the bad things myself. Sometimes I am down in the dumps and become self-centered as he mentioned, but what keeps me going is that there are others who depend on my strength and that there are those who have it far worse than I.
What keeps me from drowning in my own darkness and misery, however, is the people like you sweetie. No matter how down I become, no matter how much I am tormented, you are always there to help me get better and push me to better my life. You help those who are in need, without even knowing who they are and you disregard their past. You only care that they are better.
I strive to be like you, Alice, for it is those who aid others without asking for anything back that are the Godsend angels among us in this world of the damned.
Thank you, Sam, for being such an angel. Just remember, you are special and you totally deserve the life you are given.
You get what you give sweetie.
P.S.
You are still young...don't ever lose your kind and gentle heart.