i couldn't do it.. · 4:06am Jul 2nd, 2013
well, guess you're stuck with me... i sat there in the bathroom til my dad got home, he lectured me, then i went up to my room, sat on the bed and pressed that blade to my throat... but i couldn't slice it open... i just couldn't... and first off, i saw how many followers i got because of this, and i also saw one of my favorite guys(Pinkies Imagination) followed me.... wow... well, i can see MANY people are P.I.S.S.E.D O.F.F at me... well, i certainly didn't do this for attention, i did this because i almost BURNNED my family to death and if they survived, they would of had no roof over their heads... honestly, i expected to LOOSE my followers, get a bunch of hate mail, a bunch of rage comments, and on top of that, hatred from those i cared for... what do i get instead? well, i got the rage comments, i got help mail, and a bunch of followers from both people i never knew and people i've always liked because of their creativity, along with proof that people do actually give two flying ponies about me... my parents calmed down, i just threw my sword out the window(i think i almost hit one of the wild cats that run around my neighborhood because i heard a hiss) and now i'm back.... here's what i bet will happen, i'll lose those followers, i'm getting a shitload of hate mail, along with even MORE rage comments... let's see what happens, shal we? so YAY! the little whiny insane depressed bitch is back!
P.S: i did NOT do this for attention, i did this because i didn't want you guys asking "where the hell did this guy go?"
Glad you choose to stay.
I'm extremely happy you didn't do it. While you and I don't even know each other, I do hope that can change. I've never even met you, and you made me care about you, in a single short blog post. And I'm emotionally insensitive; I normally don't even care what people do! But you seem really cool, so I'm glad you tossed the sword.
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ho, shit... you two are nice... i bet cha the rest of 'em are blowing steam out their ears...
1182661 Don't... your last blog proved that a lot of people care for you. If anything, they'd be overjoyed to read this blog.
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sorry, i'm a pessimist.... i always look at the down side... can't help myself
1182672 It's fine... friends?
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FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC!
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1182683 Haha, lol... /)
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*blink* you brohoofed Pinkie's face....
1182686 Oh, whoops... sorry, Pinkie!
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:3
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1182661 Thanks....and you're alive. We are all happy!
1182723 yea... i'm alive... wait... am i breathing?
My words of advice. Get help. It's like a cancer. Its deadly when it shows up and just when you think its gone, it's back.
Get help. A therapist, a parent, a good friend, whatever just don't post it online. I know your name now. So do many others. We know your age. We can find you, rape, you kill you... whatever we want really. In your hormonal fit of self-pity you let all of this out. If it is a lie, you lied about the whole thing and in my opinion, if that's true, you should die. Don't joke about this shit. I have tried to commit suicide. Grabbed a gun and a knife. Pulled the trigger, no fucking bullets. I stabbed myself in the neck, somehow missing everything importaint. I'm not going to claim to be wise, or smart, or anything else. But what you did was stupid. This is what I want you to do... feel an emotion? Ignore it untill you are 22. You brain should be fully developed by then and you don't deal with hormones. Have FUN with life, people have it worse off than you do. Again personally, I lived in a car. It was taken away, my mother wants nothing to do with me. My sister moved as far away as she could. My father beats in my face. My step mother comes strait out of Cinderella. I have no friends. I play video games, work, and go here. I am paying for the Internet, my tablet, food and rent. So nice to meet ya kid. I'm 15 years old. I'm not fishing for feels. I don't care about you. I don't know you. You could be any random face on the street. Any other haters going to respond to me? You'll be read I'll tell you that. I won't recomment though. Pinkies Imagination brought me here so I'll respond to him. Don't judge him off of me. That's stupid. I like him well enough. Gone through some shit I haven't so I respect him.
I swear to God if you do this again I will give you all my Hate. Capital H. Once I can understand. Your stupid. No... naive is the word I'm supposed to say. A second time? Your fishing for shit.
Personal opinion of a bad person: If you want to kill yourself do it. Society has to try and keep you alive since you mean something to them. If you get it over with then they won't have to feel the agony.
Personal opinion of a good person: Noo! Don't do it! All life is meaningfull! Your to importaint to your family and friends!
My opinion: Cynicism. Learn it.
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there's the hate comments i was waiting for!
1182743 I think that's why they made the report button. Just some other predictable simple mind that floods the internet like a narcissistic virus of stupidity infecting the already belligerent arrogant asses with no conceptual grasp of personal conflict only being entertained by mundane regurgitated media. You're better than a superficial troll that can speak out of their asses.
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I don't understand this part please re explain
I'm missing something...
This insinuates that your family died (IF THEY SURVIVED) and lets assume that was a typo, they would have had no roof over their head. You would get more than a lecture for that. If you were in your room most houses have the bedrooms on the upper floors unless you cant walk up them. Say you came close to burning your house down, which makes more sense, you would have done it on purpose, but you felt bad. You wouldn't have done it in the first place. It is the only option. If you did it by accident why would you feel bad? So you wanted to burn down your house but you couldn't do it. Then because you already felt horrible, decided to kill yourself. Swords are very awkward to kill yourself with, but I understand whhy you would use it if it was the only thing around. Except kitchen knives. And how would you have gotten a sword? They are very expensive... so expensive you wouldn't throw them out a window. And, just thought of this, why throw it out a window if it will harm something? I assume you didn't but said that for comedic effect. Very worrying when you Realizes you just steped back from suicide... I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.
(Fimfiction.net is not kind to mobile commentors.)
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i was supposed to burn the carboard boxes we had sitting in the garage, it rained, i lit a bit of paper and i thought the embers were out, i put it on the boxes, 15 minutes later, the boxes lit and the insulation almost caught, it was an accident, i hate myself because of what could have happened, and i live in a two story home, the sword was a $560 master sword which i saved up and got my brother to show ID for me, and i sharpened it myself, and if the insulation caught fire, the house would've burnned down, if my family survived that, they wouldn't have a roof over their heads.... that explain it for ya?
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i'm just good at deflecting haters.... haters gonna hate, am i right?
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Yeah that clears it up. Thanks
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eeyup
1182743 Well... he was extremely rude about it, but he did have a point at the beginning: Have fun with your life! Find something you love to do... I enjoy Parkour, gaming, and writing fan fiction on this site. Find what you like, and do it. However, don't let anything bad get to you. Maybe not a therapist or psychiatrist, but you should talk to somebody- a friend, a family member, anyone. I do have a good bit of experience with suicide... if you'd like to talk to me over PM, don't hesitate.
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eh, i'm all good... thing is, my family don't really sympathize with me.... they're always going 'man up' or 'boo hoo' whenever i want to talk... there is one guy i know that understands me and is a good listener... Clearshot01... thanks for the offer though
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ok, this is starting to drive me insane... WHEN ARE THE DAMN RAGE COMMENTS GOING TO START COMING IN!?
thank you for your comment
1182813 Alright, glad to hear it. If you ever feel like that again, though, talk to somebody immediately. My dad's attempted many times, and in fact, the only reason he's alive right now is because he always comes to me instead of following through with it.
Life's a beautiful thing, and too many people waste it away.
1182816 Told ya', more people are happy that you're alive than mad.
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yea yea, don't be getting sappy on me...
ok you can be sappy
1182827 Sappy? Pfffft, don't be ridiculous...
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orlynoa?
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Hmmm?
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i'm watching you....
1182834 Alrighty then!
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*yawn* ima hit sack.... it's 2 AM here... g'night
1182838 Where do ya live?
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i have given out even personal info for the week... i live on the east coast, that's as close as you're going to get to pinpointing...
1182842 Holy fuck our time zones are different as hell... It's only 11:00 PM in Arizona.
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nice.... alright man, i'm about to facebed.... g'night
1182847 G'night bro.
You clearly have no idea how to kill yourself. Let me break it down for ya.
) on using a bladed weapon, there's really only one best option. Slitting the wrists. Of course, it's not that simple. First of all, you'll want to run a warm bath. Letting yourself bleed out while lying in a bathtub of warm water is apparently relatively painless and peaceful. Now, here's the most important part, slicing technique! You might think that it doesn't matter. After all, a slice is a slice right? Wrong! You see, you'll pass out from the blood loss way before you actually die. If you didn't execute (
) proper slicing technique, then the paramedics will simply stitch you up, and give you some blood transfusions. Then you'll end up waking up in a hospital surrounded by family, and let me tell ya, that's gonna be pretty damn awkward.
Slitting your throat? Amateur move, bro, and a terrible end. Imagine choking, gasping for breath but no air comes. At the same time, blood is flooding into your lungs. You literally drown on your own blood. It's horrible, and it takes forever. Seriously, it's not how you want to die.
Now if you're dead set (
So anyway, what you want to do is slash diagonally, rather than straight across. Make sure to do it on both wrists! This diagonal slash is much harder to stitch up, and the paramedics will have a far harder time saving you before you bleed out.
Of course, there are far better ways to kill yourself. While slitting the wrists is relatively popular and painless, it's also boring. It simply doesn't have the style of a leap from a tall building while also lighting yourself on fire. Nor does it have the symbolism of hanging yourself with a sign that reads "Nobody understands me. #EmoLyfe". And then there are the classics, like the bullet to the brain. Quick, easy, and completely painless, the only downside is that it requires access to a loaded gun. Something I doubt a 14 year old would have.
This has been suicide lessons with Zaponator.
Tune in next week for more exciting tips, as well as 13 uses for muffins that you'd never think of yourself.
Remember, don't be a fool, make your death cool.
Oh yeah, one more note, don't fucking kill yourself though. It's dumb, and stupid, and dumb.
Just in case my previous message wasn't facetious enough.
This is how it always fucking ends...
1182892 If I ever kill myself (which I never will, I believe it's stupid and cowardly) I plan to do it in style.
Like building a small hobbyist rocket, using an F-Engine (if I can acquire one; you need to have a permit, and they cost like 200$) and sticking it in my mouth, then igniting it.
It's a helluva way to go out, and also 99% painless.
1182900 Not always.
Do you know how hard it is to really end your life? Contradictory to what I said earlier, suicide actually takes quite a bit of guts. It's always a bad thing to do, and the bad way out of all your problems, but it definitely isn't as easy as most people think.
1182968I think it takes guts to LIVE in this world. Suidcide is an easy way out for losers. I'm happy that lunaisthebest grew a pair of balls and decided not to kill himself.
1182972 Have you ever attempted suicide?
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I was so worried about you! I made a blog directing them to your death blog and I got them to care about you as well. I'm happy your ok!
1182975 Meh. I'm a llama I don't care anymore. I don't want to take part in this argument, it's boring and not needed. lunaisthebest is alive, right?
1182800 eeyup!
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But we have style!!
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that my friend.... *sheds a tear and sniffles* was BEAUTIFUL!