I want to get back to the way I was when I first found the fandom. Back then I had all of this hope just pouring out of me. This mindset of mine back then was unstoppable, and there was nothing that could bring me down. I was ready for the worst and anything that came my way I would've overcome in glorious victory. I didn't know that the little things are the ones you have to watch out for. They
I hate feelings. I get them all the time, and they always contradict each other. "Eat this, do that, complain about this, **** that." And most of the time, they fight me. They fight who I am. Because no one else will. I never have anyone who just flat out dislikes me, and I hate it. I'm paranoid all the time, thinking that people talk behind my back, and the only relief I have from it is to