Recent events · 4:33pm Apr 4th, 2013

Your favorite spawn of chaos, Toya is here once more to bring you the news of the week. But before we get started, I would like to say a few things. Up until now, i've been having to deal with alot of problems. One of the most recent being with a relationship I was in. I can say this much: It was horrible. I won't say her name, so i'll just call her Sara. Sara and I had been together for almost two years come the 28th of this month. But recently, due to money troubles I was forced to go back and live with my mother whom she despises because of how strict she can be. I've been so supportive and helpful to her, but because of my mother, she believed that she was feeling stress and broke up with me. Naturally, this made me pretty upset and the two of us hadn't talked to each other all that much.

About a couple weeks passed and get this? Apparently, Sara was still in love with me and wanted to be with me again. Because of how she was acting before and not admitting to me how she really felt when i teased her on it, my trust in her had worn very thin. But i did still care about her, so I said yes. However, not too long after I said yes, she asked me how angry would I be if she had sex with another guy. Now....normally, she never asks me those kind of questions unless she is testing to see how much I can bear being with her or unless she was actually thinking about it. Guess what? She was thinking about it. Apparently, she was talking to another guy that she said she liked that liked her back, but she didn't love him. She loved me, but she wanted to have sex with him. "Loves me, but wants to have sex with him"?

Let me tell you exactly why that is bullshit. Nothing about it makes any sense at all. How the fuck do you say you're in love with me but say you wanna have sex with another person? That's like me saying, "Hey mom. Me and this one girl are back together, but i'm gonna go fuck this one chick right here." No sense at all. From my perspective, the first time is supposed to be special. And if you want it to be special, then save it for the one you love. If you give it up to anyone else that you don't love, you're doing it for just pleasure. And to me, women who only want to do it for pleasure are not worth my time. Naturally, I flipped out on her and i refused to speak to her for the rest of the day.

Then yesterday, she had the gall to call me up, having drunk herself into a stupor the other day and starts going emo on me. So you know what? I told her like it was. I'm done. i don't want to deal with girls like her. I don't want to deal with someone who plays with my emotions and then tries to make me feel bad when I get angry at them for the right reasons. So, she and I are through. I'm not going to date her ever again, let alone will I accept her if she begs me to come back. But since she is one of my closest friends, I won't abandon her altogether. Just....I won't accept her as a lover again.
In spite of that, I have taken on a new lover, whom I dub as Tia. But I won't tell you anymore about that. Let's get to the other important stuff.

Chapter 7 of Von's Equestrian Adventure is still in the works. Due to the break up and job related events, I haven't had as much time as i normally would to continue writing. So I apologize if it comes out shitty in any way. In other news, I am quite stuck as for a pairing that I'm thinking of. More likely than not, I may get alot of hate just for THINKING it but I want some advice.

I am thinking about pairing Von with Celestia. Now I know what you're thinking. "She's a goddess. There's no way he could ever get with someone like her. She's too high class", and blah blah. See, that's the reason why I want to do it! She's always treated as high class, but has anypony ever bothered to stop and see the mare within? The one that yearns for normal treatment, instead of the usual "Hey Princess Celestia." "Princess, can you help me?" "Princess, i need your advice." "All hail our princess." and much more. I wish to see her treated like a normal mare for once instead of worshiped every. single. time. And I would like for Von to be the one that treats her normally. Now the romance would not happen IMMEDIATELY, so get that thought out of your head right now. Rather, I am going to be simple and have it happen gradually. Start with companionship, work up to being romantically interested, then the relationship itself. But my knowledge on how to make it work properly is very limited. So i would like to ask that you please give me some advice on how to work it right.

Please and thank you. Well, I'm glad we shared this little moment. And I'm feeling much better now for venting it to you all. I thank you for being a wonderful audience and I thank you, DancesWithBaglez, my mentor and my greatest friend for helping me through such a rough time. Thank you everyone for listening.