Last: Fears going forward · 3:27am Jan 28th, 2013
Not sure why I'm posting this. Just wanted to get my thoughts out.
When I conceived Last I had fantasies that it would become popular. Then I published the first two chapters, and it has received overwhelming approval from the community. It appears those chapters have succeeded at what they were intended to do: Give the audience a sense we are beginning a grand adventure from relatively humble beginnings.
I was so excited by the response I got from these two chapters that I did not sleep at all Friday night. I spent all day yesterday in an exhausted stupor, completely unable to do anything. Thank goodness it was a Saturday.
The world is a very different place when you're sleep-deprived. I re-read the first two chapters and saw nothing special. I checked again at the number of people who'd favourited and asked myself, "what are these people seeing that I'm not?" "what if the people who say 'I like where this is going' are disappointed by where it actually goes?" "what if it isn't epic enough?". I even had paranoid thoughts that an absurd number of people were playing a prank on me with their likes and favourites, a prank of a much more cruel nature than Pinkie Pie would approve of.
I got myself to bed at 11 and slept in 'till 1 today. More importantly, I got myself off my computer for a little bit and did some schoolwork. I now have a much clearer vision of what's going to happen with Last, and it looks much better.
I conceived the final scene of Last before anything else. A large number of chapters at all points in the narrative are already written or at least begun. I should have no fear of being without direction, for I've always known where I wanted to take it. And if it's epic enough for my tastes, then I'm sure my readers will enjoy it, too, so long as the passion with which I write it seeps into the words I write. I have an editor, KeatsLocksley, who will prevent me from publishing chapters with poor grammar or sentences that make absolutely no sense or have no purpose, things with which I and all other writers have the occasional issue. Most importantly, I know that I must stick to my principles, using my story to express exactly what I want it to say about MLP, about people, and about myself.
In short, though I was initially frightened by the number of people expecting something great from me, I know that everything is going to be all right.
