Please know your worth · 11:07am January 29th
This is going to be a slightly different post than usual. There is no story update to provide here. This blog post is mainly to tell everyone who will read it to keep their worth in mind when approaching any situation. I will do that by providing an example of my own life.
Recently, I had a previous friend contact me again. They told me that they had missed me and wanted to hang out. Sounds sweet enough, right? Except the context for this meeting is a lot worse. This friend of mine legitimately felt like they were one of my best friends in the whole world. However, they abandoned me. Three separate times. In these times, they would delete all their accounts or just go inactive all together with barely an excuse as to why. The last time they abandoned me, they told me that they wanted new friends who represented their ideals for self improvement and that I was not cutting it for them. However, when they did not find new friends, they got lonely and tried to come back into my life once again.
Every time this friend disappeared, I would try to welcome them back with open arms. I was their biggest supporter and even worked things out with the mutual friends that they had hurt even more than me. However, they never apologized. They believed that you should be willing to forgive and forget if someone comes back to you. Well, yesterday, they came back again and I couldn't handle it. I am done being a victim of someone who pretends they value my friendship when they're just going to disappear again. At this point, there is no trust. They had not taken accountability or even apologized. I would like to say this hurt, but it did not. I had expected this outcome. I loved them as if they were family, but I knew they would never apologize. I still miss them, but I told them that I cannot be their friend again because I will not put myself in that situation...
I won't name anyone in particular, but they already know who they are. Please know your worth. Everyone reading this, know you deserve to have friends who won't abandon you and will care about your connection as much as you do. You don't deserve to be treated like a carpet. Especially if you're like me and try to see the best in everyone. You deserve the best, whether you believe that or not. Don't let yourself be treated like this. It may hurt. You may miss the person you knew. But if you know they won't change, don't give them another chance to hurt you. As much as we believe everyone deserves the best in life...
So do you.
Sincerely,
Spyder27
I can see how you have incorporated your life experiences into your writing. If there’s a silver lining here, it’s that it’s given you emotion to infuse in your stories.
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A lot of the more real sequences in my stories have been inspired by direct events from my life. Not that I've had an evil subconscious hallucination, but you know what I mean
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Hmm… that sounds like something an evil subconscious hallucination might say
Fuck yeah, saying no to being the back burner friend and being someone else’s support beam.
To be honest, I am a bad friend to others. How can I improve that?
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You got this
All you have to do is be there for them and take responsibility when you do something wrong~
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They don't seem to see that I was a bad friend, so I'll do my best not to fail again.
Thanks.