Culmination of the november blues

I prefer to measure success against myself, rather than others. That way, it ensures that I am evaluating my own abilities and growth, rather than the hum of our species pooled talent.
That only works for as long as you are improving. For as soon soon as you notice your abilities lacking, as soon as you slow down compared to your prime, you realise you are past what you can achieve in your own lifetime. And the stress builds, digs, sinks through your sinew until it dominates the fabric of your thoughts: is this all I will be...?
And if you look at other's work once you have delved this far... it only stings more.

Happy Filthy Friday~.
And happy Depression november~.