It's like 40 percent different now.

I only now realize what I'm doing to myself is really unhealthy. Does this mean I'm going to stop? No, I deserve it! I'm just a no good, scum sucking, nose picking, boot licking, sniveling, groveling, worthless hunk of slime.

I've been thinking about moments where I was emotionally damaged today and it downsided me. Right now I'm about to eat my way into depression.

What should I do if I want to talk to someone but I don't know how or where to start or keep it going?

To all my followers including cjuoni0903, Just STOP! Stop following me.

Will someone just rip my heart out of my body?

I want to open up to someone. I'm thinking of giving My Little Pony Gen 4 another chance. I want to try Gen 5 and Pony Life. But I feel like if I do I will never live it down. I am currently transitioning to an adult and it's not easy. I'm in a therapeutic outpatient program and I was able to open up to the other patients but it felt empty. Not to mention I have acrimonious verbal skills. You never read that last sentence. I just feel so sick sometimes.