PLEASE READ THIS!

I know i shouldn't put my personal life upon my accounts but with all the shit that has been effecting me the past days and the uncaring the people i tell this to, just don't care (or say the wrong things to me), ive decided to tell you all about it so that you can understand the situation i'm in, which may or may not effect the activeness of me on my accounts.
Throughout my life, i've spent majority of it trying to find a girlfriend and i guess due to the long journey of rejection and depression, i believe it might have taken a toll on my mental health due to never, ever having a girlfriend and been missing out on all the hugs, kisses, snuggles, companionship and other things i wish to do with that special someone. The main thoughts ive been having now are nothing more but an alternative version of me, experiencing what I'm not experiencing in the present.
The main responses I've been getting to this is "stop acting so desperate", "go find a hooker" and other slanderous slurs towards me and small spinets of how their life is better than mine. When i try and act upon this, they threaten to block me from everyone else and isolate me cause they believe i'm a threat towards their lives. (Fucking cunt-head pricks) Their was a time not long ago where i nearly ended my life due to them.
So, me telling you this will help explains if i decided to me more offline than online than usual or if i wish to not want to make videos.
And also, if any girl is interested in wishing to date me or wishes to start a relationship with me, PLEASE send me a message here either on this account or where you feel its comfortable in communicating to talking to each other.

Thank you all for reading and understanding my concerns.