Rewatch doing wonders!

For a moment there I thought I'd lost the spark. I'm past 18 (in mid-20-s, in fact), so I'm not a child. Cartoons are not supposed to bring me joy, but for all these years I've watched them aplenty. At least it feels so. Not many 'toons are never-before-seen: some are rewatched for the times' sake . So, maybe, I've grown up. But the rewatches have never ceased to entertain me. These animated works may not be so mentally advanced, but they are fun to watch! All inner voices just... shut up. And stay quiet. And only occasionally they rise to comment on something. Immersion falters, but only for a bit.

Well... Maybe, as we grow, the immersion... just fades? I've experienced it. A cartoon I only caught glimpses of. Featuring robots. And fighting. And transformations making robots large. But, what's important, is: robots. Robots are cool! Too bad I saw it once on TV. In 2007. Do the maths.

Ten years passed, and I remembered it. I searched for it in 2017. And found it. There was joy, and the joy was had! I swallowed it whole! What I couldn't have had in my childhood I was having after all those years!

And then one year passed. I celebrated the rejoining. I rewatched the cartoon. And it was just as before: entertaining and joy-inducing!

Then I did that again. And again. And did 2020 strike, and all hid from the virus. It got intense... but it passed. Year 2021 was nigh...

Then... It all became too much. 'Twas unbearable. It was hard... Many rewatches did not repeat...

But then all became to look up! The paused rewatches were being unpaused! I was finishing them!..

Just yesterday I felt... unrestful. There was not much to do at night. No more fresh Youtube videos to watch. No quick, fun games to play. And writing felt hard. I think I felt angst. I can't tell that precisely: fanfiction has been using this term to mean very emotional things. I think, I felt the need for joy. For lightheartedness. For fun! To be young again, I think...

Well. There was another rewatch I'd missed this year. The robot. My sweet, sweet "Robotboy"!.. I'd found it on Youtube, and it's still there even now. I started. The video was played, and the rewatch began. And I... I felt nothing. No pleasure of repeating the old fun, just like previous years. No... The memories were revived, but the joy wasn't there. The inner voices, those very voices, which break immersion, kept commenting. On how there were dumb jokes (well, they wouldn't seem brilliant these days). On how differently it could have been. On why certain things weren't needed probably. There were so many details distracting! It didn't seem like a cartoon. No. Cartoons leave no room for distraction. It's full immersion from the start till the copyright notice! But... I didn't feel attached... I think, I could leave... My interest... It didn't appear, as though...

No, it didn't appear I was a child any more. I had felt I'd been becoming too old to watch cartoons... I'd felt old! And, even though I swallowed 12 episodes in row -- just like in old times... I didn't think cartoons would bring me joy in the years to come...

That was then. Yesterday I was rewatching one of the cartoons that constituted what was left of my childhood... And I thought, that I might as well proceed with the MLP rewatch. Oh yeah!

So on this day, on the 10-th of October, on the day "Friendship is magic" celebrates its 11-th anniversary (yay !) -- I've decided to continue. It is time to move on to season 3... And by far... The beginning of the season... Oh!.. The memories of me watching it -- back when the episode wasn't banned from the social network of my choice!..

No, it doesn't appear I've lost the spark yet ! I sang along to the cast singing! There was sequence of drawn images to enjoy -- and gosh did I! Season 3!.. It started in 2012 and ended somewhere in 2013. And by 2014 season 4 existed, and there was no season 5. That was the time I gave the ponies a go. That was the time I was watching. Year 2014 was nearing its end, and year 2015 was beginning. Season 1 was finished. On to season 2! -- I declared. And I did and was highly pleased and amused! I think I was in love. Season 3 began -- and there was enjoyment! No, do try rewatching the first episode! Tha-a-at was the epoch!

When I was done with season 3, there was no denying it. Ponies were YES! Date -- spring of 2015. There was yet season four to enjoy! And, can you believe it? season 5 was rumoured to come to be! Oh, there were times I was crazy! I was frantic! That was the time ponies became my life.

Since then things have gone slowly. I sank in fanfiction! I watched Youtube! I did things, wishing to leave loads upon loads of spare episodes to watch! They aged. And by 2020 I'd watched... six seasons. Huh. "Well, that doesn't matter, -- I thought. -- Surely I can revive the experience by rewatching!" And that was that.

And I attest... The episodes I watched in 2014-2015 -- still feel the most inebriating! It's only season 3's beginning, but I can tell it will be magnificent!

Happy MLP:FIM anniversary, everypony!