Regrets of a clueless YouTuber and why I began doing YouTube in the first place: a little about my goals and aspirations, what I want to do with it

This has also been posted on my YouTube channel - posting here to make sure it isn't missed by anybody interest in the future of FireRain or if they've been wondering where I've been.

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I honestly regretted a lot of times I recorded a video and was never able to save most of the bloopers. When things get botched and I end up having to re-record an entire 30-minute-long video - which has happened before - there tends to be a lot of swearing and random comedic lines that would have made for some good content.

A lot of other YouTube fanfiction readers may do the same and save all of their scrapped, botched lines for a blooper or outtake reel, and I wish I did that. I use GarageBand for all my content because it works well. However, I think I do prefer Audacity for a few reasons, one of said reasons being it's what I started out with when I had my old laptop. I was able to splice lines in rather than having to record them separately and then export it as an individual file to later put into an empty slot in the editing software I use. Doing it that way is just too tedious for my liking. Doesn't sound like a lot of work, but until you do this yourself, you'll know what I'm talking about.

Literally the only thing I want to do is make good quality videos, keep at a steady and consistent pace with it and not do what most others do and only rush things for the sake of more subscribers. I don't want to be one of those YTbers. I began this channel originally for fun, but when I did it more seriously, I designed it around the promotion of lesser-known Fanfiction authors from Fimfiction, whom may also have their own YT channels. I've met a few, and one of them who did a reading of one of my darker Scootaloo stories did an impressive job for their first reading! Like, I'm serious, the amount of effort and immersion put into that along with the delivery of dialogue was very professional and put my own work to shame - not saying that in a spiteful way, but more or less in a friendly way. That is where I want to be one day, and I will if I get to do this long enough.

I'm no professional voice actor and have vocal issues where I can't make high-pitched noises, which snuffs any attempt at female voices. The closest I can get is Applejack, Apple Bloom and Big Mac. Nonetheless, I do and will continue to try to be as professional as I possibly can with the tools I have. If this could become successful enough that I can do it full-time, then I'm going to do all I can to meet demand and make everyone else happy. That is literally all I want out of this; to not suck and to have a high quality standard for each video. It just takes time. A lot of time.

I also try to be as interactive with everyone I can through the comments sections and all the media I linked to my channel, such as Discord. The link is at the top of my main channel page on the lower right of my channel banner, if you want to join. I haven't ever ran a server before, but the more built-up it gets, the more I'll be able to talk to everyone. I was originally going to do gaming videos on a regular basis as a live broadcast, playing games like Fallout and Bioshock. I'd love to do that, but I have to build a PC first. Once I find steady work to afford one, I will. I haven't played a game in ages, not since a little over a month, maybe two, and that sucks. It was all I used to do at one point in my life, so if a younger me wasn't stupid and knew how to record games, you probably would have seen me play games like Sims 3, Saints Row 2, Red Faction: Guerrilla, Dead Space 2 and 3, Portal 2 and much more while flipping out in rage constantly because I used to get very frustrated with them when bad things happened. I'd be embarrassed to death by it if you got to see those days yourself, but it would have been fun to see in some ways.

There is so much I missed out on doing because of inexperience and missed opportunities when I began YouTube when I was a pre-teen. Thank Dashie those videos are no longer available anywhere. The level of cringe was off the scale. In those regards, I want this channel to have no regrets for however long it stays running and wherever the future takes it. It might turn from fanfiction to music, fanfiction to gaming or it might become a massive mix of all three of those things. I never wanted FireRain or any other past failure at attempting YouTube to be grounded to one single thing. I'm the type of guy who wants to try everything at least once.

That being said, I don't know the exact direction this channel will go in during my lifetime or however long I spend running and managing it, but I want to leave nothing untouched and I want to try everything I never had a chance to in the past when I was a kid and didn't have a clue on what I was doing. That is what I want FireRain to become one day, and I just don't know where to begin with doing all of that. One way or another, I'll figure something out. I always have and always will, at the very least. I have a lot to consider.

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Peace and love

- FireRain 💛