Fuck it, sick of being a loser. I'm going to do what I should have done long ago! (Making a beneficial change in my life) · 11:54pm Dec 7th, 2020
Right, o' right, I already feel beyond done with this whole job search bollocks. It sucks, yes. Very hard.
I can't tell you how many places I've applied for and got turned down. As disheartening as it is, I know I'll still have to keep looking. The only places that have spaces open, one of which I was just offered within the previous hour, are places I can't get to due to transport reasons. I don't have the money for train, bus, etc. I'm trying to save for a car to make this more easy as a means of getting to where I need to be. There are very little hiring places in my town, leaving me stranded here.
My only friend I stayed in contact with whom I met in college had this same problem and told me over a voice chat in Messenger that he decided to go back to college because finding a job wasn't working. So that's what I also decided to do. I've applied for an L3 music course like I should have done from the start and done something with my life. Frankly, I fucking suck at being a good person and making good decisions. That's why I spent another pointless and nonsense plus-year in a Creative Media Production course that I didn't need to do.
Wow, I'm f-ing depressed. Think it's time to switch to the good stuff. Drink some whiskey, clear my head, cry, move on with my life and for once do something beneficial that'll get me into the industry and where I want to be.
