Dying · 12:46am Aug 19th, 2020
I feel like I'm gonna die early. I'm pretty young right now but at the same time, I think I've lived more than some adults. I feel like every day is empty and it's getting harder and harder to make myself get up in the morning. Every day I have to put on a mask of happiness and act like everything is okay when I know it's not. I want something to change but nothing is.
I know how I sound, knowing that what other people have gone through is worse than what is happening to me. But I feel like no one really knows me. They only see what I want them to see. I don't fear death at all but I'm afraid that it'll hurt people. That's why I've not been very cautious of the corona. Because I want something to change even if it's bad. I wake up and everything seems like it's for nothing...
I think I'm gonna play some videogames then go to sleep, it's the only time I'm really happy. See you guys later.
Hey man, you good?
Stay strong man you can't go yet!
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Thank you all for the support, I'm glad that even in these times you can find kind people
I can say, I myself go through the same thing repeatedly. But I find a way to “spice up” my daily life. Do absolutely dumb things, call a random friend, do an absolutely unneeded game challenge to brag about. Do what it takes to make your life exciting because I can tell you now that life isn't going to do it for you. I hope that helps with what's going on, this community is here for you if you need us. Love you dude (no homo of course 😅).
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I'm a dude
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That means more to me than you know
I was going through some of this stuff not long ago but I got out of it over time with some help so just remember that even if you feel as if you have nowhere to turn I'm 100% certain that you'll find support and people to talk to on this site. You'll have people to listen and support you here if you need a pick-me-up.