Mom Troubles Rant - Alternate Title = Overly Worried Mother... Right? · 3:08am Aug 7th, 2020

So, my mom has been talking about possibly traveling to Japan, right? And I show the tiniest bit of disinterest (apparently). Then, about 40-45 minutes ago, she called me into the kitchen where she was washing the dishes and asks me about something (I don't remember, short attention span and all.) Then, probably not even 5 minutes later, she calls me back out and starts talking about how I've 'been so disinterested in everything'. I showed a tiny disinterest in stuff for, maybe, 2 days, and yet she acts like and says that it's been longer. She said, basically, that she thought I was suicidal or depressed and asks if something's wrong (I say 'no', because I don't think anything's wrong.) and then she goes on about how bad my grades are how I'm so behind and how even when she moved out of her parents' house she still continued school and what-not. Why can't she get it through her head (or even realize) I'M NOT HER! I DON'T HAVE THE SAME EXPERIENCES AS HER! I'M NOT SOME DOUBLE OF YOU TO HAVE TO DO THINGS THE WAY YOU DID! YOU GET YOUR HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA?! GOOD FOR YOU! YOU GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL AN A STUDENT?! GOOD FOR YOU! BUT I'M NOT YOU! And then, she goes on saying how I'm 'digging myself into a hole and burying myself in it' and how she's worried 'that I won't ever get out of that hole'. WELL, WHAT IF I LIKE THIS HOLE?! WHAT IF I THINK IT'S COZY?! Oh, and she also mentioned that she's worried about my negativity and pessimism. I can be negative if I want! Besides! In my opinion, it's better to expect the worst of everything so you can (possibly) be pleasantly surprised when something good happens. Then she goes on and says that I'm hurting myself by being negative and that my bad grades are hurting me, therefore hurting her. WELL, THEN STOP CARING! IT'LL BE EASIER ON BOTH OF US! WHY CAN'T YOU BE A HORRIBLE MOTHER IN THIS REGARD!? I MEAN, I GET THAT YOU'RE A SINGLE MOM RAISING A 16 Y.O. BUT CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME BE IN THIS REGARD?! I mean, sure I gave her a letter apologizing for being a failure and disappointment, which I am, but that's no reason to think I'm suicidal. I don't want to kill myself! And even if I did, I probably wouldn't go through with it, I'm too chicken. I bet I could out-chicken a chicken!

The point of this rant (though I don't remember if I started this with a point...) is: Is my mom right to worry like this? Is she right to think there's something wrong with me? Cause I told her there wasn't anything wrong. "Anything that I know of." Should she be worried? And by extent, should I be worried?

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