A word to all my fans... · 8:39pm Feb 12th, 2012
I'm hoping that those of you who read the latest chapter of A Slice of LIfe have done me the courtesy of also viewing this. For that, I thank you sincerely.
I like to think of myself as an honest pony when he speaks from the heart. Normally, this is not very often. As previous companions and friends have known, I have a habit of masking my own emotions, thoughts, and feelings. Needless to say, this drove my girlfriend mad. Constantly. Honestly, it got pretty funny. But I digress,,, allow me to speak openly, plainly, and honestly with all of you.
Half of writing is showmanship. How one can present crud as a masterpiece, and make others seem it as such. People look on this works and wonder how one could do it so fast, so easily. The writer must never let the reader know the hours one pours into his work, fretting thinking, and of course, deleting. The writer must never let his readers know how stressful it is to live up to all of their expectations. His must never let them know that he may beat himself up mentally, emotionally, and psychologically for not achieving the same quality or output or gathering as other wtiers. To never let them know the despise he inevitably feel for small indulgences, such as spending an additional thirty minutes chatting with friends instead of writing.
With this now being said... I am no longer a writer.
When I first began A Slice of Life... I didn't think it would be read by anymore than maybe 10 people. Maybe five or so comments. They'd laugh at what I percieved an ill attempt at humor, maybe give me a few three stars for good effort. I'd grin, laugh to myself and with my friends on this site on how another "masterpiece" fell through the cracks, and we'd laugh it off till the wee hours in the morning, being silly and goofy as always.
Instead, I posted in the early morning, and returned several hours later to find a veritable storm bogging up my computer. Honestly, it was like the equivalent of winning the lottery. Since then... this.... story has transformed into a monster, with over 16,000 views, over 1,100 people tracking, 53 favourites, 271 ratings that equal 4.9 star rating and 228 comments. Almost overnight, almost new 70 people are now watching me.
And we're only on chapter 2... I'm almost afraid of chapter 3 now...
I'm a relatively young writer here in the fandom. Im in my sophmore year of college, and Im currently on academic overload, so Im taking more classes than I really should. I work to pay for college myself, and I also have numerous family duties (such as taxicabbing numerous siblings). I love writing, but I also love reading. And cooking,and baking, and walking on beaches, and playing Skyrim and watching vids on youtubes. Hanging out with friends, and stargazing, and many many many many many other pleasures and things I like to do in my freetime.
*sighs* But lately... I've been very bitter about myself. I took a short break from writing... Since then, I cant help but my skills have gotten.... rusty. That I made a fatal mistake, and I have alot of ground to cover. I see other writers here post massive things day after day after day. So I've been beating myself up, and insulting myself as a writer. I am my own biggest critic.... and I am a mean and nasty, and bitter critic. That razor tounge gets turned on its owner.
You guys have alot of expectations for this story... I dont want to let anyone down.
With that being said... I'm no longer I writer.
I dunno what I am now. I broke the biggest rules. I don't keep up showmanship. Don't worry, I will continue to write Slice of Life. Its fun to write to for it. :3 I have alot of jokes and ideas planned, and some really funny scenes I wanna put on paper. But... I also have alot of other things in my life that also need to get worked on. So the chapter will come... they'll come, don't worry.
Will they come as fast as people want them too? I dunno. Will they be like 10k words each? More than likely not... I'm not writing a novel here.
I guess.... I'm just trying to say that I've finally learned to stop beating myself up. I'm my own writer... so I'll write at my pace. Not someone else's. Besides, initially I started this story for fun. Fans were a wonderful surprise, of course, but if the story is no longer fun for me to write.... than how it is any fun for you?
As always, Ilove criticism and ways to improve my writing. Im still learning after all...
...and I'm learning to fall in love with writing all over again.
Cheers to all my wonderful fans whose making this story fun to write. You're a wonderful bunch.
~Wisdom From the Dawnscroll~
A man whose lost is purpose isn't lost. He just needs to find a new purpose.
Woah. That's pretty deep. You've actually combined many writer philosophies I've heard into one flowing post... Anyways, I'm really happy for you. I want you to write at your own pace and do what makes you happy. My only expectations with A Slice of Life are that you write when you feel inspired and you don't give up hope. Good luck, Dawnscroll. I wish you the best.