Time to get these things off my chest, I hate holding it in. · 1:49am Mar 1st, 2019
I won't go into full detail, but here it goes.
1) Have you ever been bullied?
I wasn't bullied or picked on up until high school, which was the time I first experienced this phenomenon. My bullies happened to be multiple people I went to school with, who happened to be around my age. I got bullied for being weird, annoying, and shy. Because of this, I cried most of the time when I was in high school. I even felt like couldn't make new friends or socialize with people I even knew.
2) Do you underestimate yourself a lot?
Yes, I do. I come from a Chinese family where it was believed that underestimating a member of your own family a lot would help them develop into an individual they envisioned you to be. But I found that it just lowers my self-esteem.
3)Did you ever think about suicide?
Very little people know about this, but I did. I was a kid back then, growing up in a physically abusive household. This what caused me to be so sad and so ashamed of myself.
4) Is your family okay with you being an introvert?
They disapprove actually, they believe it shouldn't be my personality. But being an introvert is a part of who I am.
5) Does your family think that you don't love them?
Yes. Certain family members, I won't name any. They feel like I don't have a heart and that I don't show it externally. I know how to show that I care, but not when they say things that will bring me down. I'm afraid to show my affections externally, so I show my love from the heart. But from the bottom of my heart, I still love my "complex" Chinese family.
That is all...
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