Unfinished Business (My Plan For The Year) · 8:08pm Jan 1st, 2019
I never yielded. And, as you can see, I am not dead.
2018 sucked. Somehow, worse than the year before, which was somehow worse than the year before that... So I'm gonna learn from my mistakes and set my expectations low for 2019. Mainly, I just wanna not die.
Speaking of dead, this account is very nearly that. Not by choice. More like out of necessity. It just got to be too much. My expectations for myself were too high, and I was getting frustrated that I wasn't reaching them. That, plus the advent of my second account and the clusterfuck that Nothing Without Me has become, I was ready to pull the plug on Chillbook1.
But I'm not going to. I've got some unfinished business here.
Nothing Without Me is a story that I'm still very much so invested in personally, and the lack of updates have been due to me being unable to get over my anxiety of backlash for my choices in that story. Insane that a mostly light-hearted slice of life comedy is my most controversial and trying story so far, but that's the way things roll. It's genuinely difficult for me to write this fic, because all I can think about is people getting upset at what I choose to do. I'm hoping to change that about myself in 2019, because I need to finish Raven's story. She's too under-represented and dear to me to leave her with a half-baked story, especially when I have an ending in mind.
I also have some more serious pieces I want to put out, two come to mind specifically. One that I've mentioned in passing, and one that's so incredibly personal to me that only one other person knows of it. The former is about half finished, and I hope to have it ready by Valentine's Day (though I hesitate to even say that because I'm gonna jinx the fuck out of myself). The latter may never see the light of day, because it's a difficult thing to write and I think it may be even more uncomfortable to read. Even still, I have every intention of writing them both.
Finally, I've started serious work on an original novel by the name of Gears & Glass. I don't want to give too much away, but it's a high fantasy adventure with some steampunk elements, following 3 protagonists on the search for a missing princess. While I don't intend to make it a series, I do hope to leave the door open to do other stories within the universe of Gears & Glass (but, as usual, I'm getting ahead of myself).
I won't bore you with the typical New Years Resolution bullshit, how I plan to eat better and exercise and try to manage my depression. I think I'm past the "talking about it" phase. I'm either gonna do it or I'm not, stay or leave. And I can't go just yet.
I've got unfinished business.
Good luck to you on all of that.
Best of luck to you in this new year.
I hope 2019 it's not as bad as 2018.