Max Potions #4: Forgiveness has to be EARNED

Now I’m literally done tarring the Admins lib from lib. I’m sorry I didn’t know any of the misunderstandings sooner. Now this topic I will go to actually has something that actually happened to me. Now, if you’re new to me, keep in mind, I don’t like reviling true stuff about me. I am just going to say this now: I am not trying to paint myself in a brighter tone. I’m going to say that now.

About 6 months ago, I was in high school (and I still am). I have had a friend, who invited me to her table. The table had only girls, so I was the only boy. There was this one girl that hated me (I will not tell you her name, in fear it will ruin her life, so lets call her... Becky), and I didn't know about it until later. One day, after someone asked a question, which was highly inappropriate, and I responded with, "I cannot confirm, or deny it". Now, my definition for it is, "I don't want to answer". However, they took it as "yes". The next time I sat over there, the group of girls made a vote, and... all but one of them wanted me gone. Becky in particular was trying to get rid of me. She even planned on telling the teachers about this (I would eventually found out to be Blackmail) which, in all since, would ruin my dreams, and crushing the reputation I gained peacefully. In matter in fact, I ended up crying because I was in fear, and dread, and panic, of my life being ruined.

Now to point out, I am a Christian. I believe in the Bible and it's teachings, except one. Forgiveness. In the Bible, forgiveness is to let go of ones burden, in a calm peaceful way. It also said that you should forgive someone for their wrong doings. I don't believe that. I believe forgiveness has to be earned. Forgiveness is not meant to be given for free. And I believe that that girl, who nearly ruin my life, doesn't deserve forgiveness. She needs to earn it. And that can come without warning. She will never be forgiven.