For Now · 5:00pm Jul 20th, 2018
So uh...most people on this page will agree that I'm not the best ever. At one point, my page was the peak of existence! I could post things every day and people were involved and we would get hundreds of views and back then everything was happy and fun and playful. Then, at some point in it all, I dropped off. One post per year from me and that was it. It was something to look forward to, maybe, but in a lot of ways, it was just a way for me to keep a page going where other people thought it couldn't. When I came back a while ago, it was amazing to see that so many people that I knew back then still followed this shell of a page that others could be proud of. But at some point I have to be honest with everybody and tell you where I've been, where I am, and where I'm going, both here and in life.
For a long time now, there hasn't been much to say of me as a person. As an online presence I've grown in popularity, in both novel-writing, inspirational quotes, and other various things. In real life, though, I don't think I've been very active until about my senior year of high school. That was when I decided to make something of my life and stop secluding myself, and in many ways, I succeeded. My grades in school finally improved, I made friends I was happy with, and I finally got a novel in the publishing process. Just months later, though, I'd fallen back into something that even I can't describe. I'm a person that people generally know as happy, upbeat, and never without a frown or way to brighten others' days. I'm not depressed, I know I'm not, but something keeps secluding me inside of my room, stuck to Netflix, puzzles, and silence. Me, somebody who can't shut their mouths in front of other people, sitting in silence--it's crazy.
And as life continues on, I wonder what I'm going to do. On FiMFiction I built a magnificent (for me) following with my stories. I have this page on FB that people seem to have once loved. I have an ongoing series of poems (today is day 125) that have gained a bit of notoriety. Hell, I'm publishing a novel. Shouldn't this all make life better?
And so...as of today, July 20, 2018, I am coming back and going into hiding once again. I don't know why...I don't know if it's because I'm sad or lonely or just can't wake up in the morning without thinking if it's worth it, but I have to go again. As of today, I've disbanded from my friends, my pages, my FiMFiction account, everything...
I don't know when I'll be back. I don't know if you all will still be loyal to Derpy, Wizard, me, or if I'll be a memory. But in a lot of ways, you all provided me with happy moments that I'll cherish forever.
Thank you for that.
And may your hearts be filled with muffin-y goodness.
Thank you.
~Derpy, Wizard32363, James
Whether or not you come back, you were probably the most fun author that I've ever worked with. Wherever you end up, just know that I'm wishing you the best! (And hey, if and when you do come back, I'm always up for more proofreading.)