I just dont know what to do? · 7:50pm Mar 21st, 2017
Hi to anyone who even notices me. My grate grandma is on her dearh bed and today me and my sister and mum just whent to see her for the last time and say our goodbys. I... Just dont know what to do, she was just laying there so out of it ,just waiting for it to all end. When it came to say goodbye i dont know if she heard me and is now looking for me because she thought I didn't say bye. Maybe I should have seen her more even though she lives on the other side of the uk. I just feel like she thinks i don't like her for not seeing her much...... Am i a bad grate grandson?.... I just don't know what to do anymore. Mabye it is my fault, even though im told it's the cancers fault i still fell like i could at least do something to make her happy for our last time together. But it's to late now the chance has been and left. I feel like i have caused her pain. So i guess i am a bad grandson... Maybe i should have never of been born.
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