READ THIS READ THIS NOW! · 1:01am Nov 6th, 2016
This is a follow up to one of my blogs, Need Advice. I might make this into a story. Haven't written one in months.
so anyway, this is a follow up blog to Need Advice. Um, so basically, after a month without speaking, I called her. And we had a convo. And she said that the most I'll ever be getting from her is a hi. That we'll never be friends. But you know what really burns? What burns is that she took the cowards way out. She could've grown some balls! She could've told me the truth, but instead, she lied, and hid, and ignored me because she was too much of a coward to tell me her true feelings! She just said, I don't want to be friends. When I asked why, well, she said she couldn't be herself around me. She just said, I tried for a year, hid my true self. What a load of B.S. Ok? Ever think that I changed to be with her? I have lost a lot of sleep listening to my morals, not taking the easy way out, not hiding, staying loyal to her because I love her. A lot. And she'll never know I guess, because she's too busy being a coward, and hiding.
I've spent all this time feeling sad because there's something inside of me telling me that the person she is , that she's being right now, isn't her. And that she's just lying, trying to push me away.
But I don't want to leave her. The feeling, the longing to be with her is so strong that I think about her every day. She's the reason I'm up at night, the reason I had to say goodbye.
She is basically my life. And now I have to say goodbye.
She doesn't know who she is, I don't think. But this isn't her. And I'll always stay with her, even if I'm not there physically, I'll always be by her side.
Until she figures out who she truly is. I told her a long time ago I'd never leave her, not really. And I always keep my promises.
If she's reading this right now, and she's somehow found this, she'll know who I am. If she doesn't then that's just sad, a pretty girl like her shouldn't be so short termed when it comes to memory. After all, you made your choice the second you walked away M'K?
