my letter of things she will never know · 1:02pm Sep 12th, 2012
I write this now in hopes that you find this letter... at the same time i wish you to never know of its existence, this is my letter telling of how i love you, have always loved you and always will, this is my letter to say all the unspoken words and un-acted upon thoughts, this is my letter telling you how much you mean to me, most of all this is the letter telling you everything you will never know...
you will never know how i wish i could fall a sleep next to you again, or hold you in my arms and cuddle you until dawn comes.
you will never know how my heart brakes the moment i think of you and see your not next to me anymore
you will never know how i cry myself to sleep wishing you well on anything and everything you did, do and have yet to do
you will never know how i pray that your safe and worry that your not
you will never know you drive me to be better every day
you will never know your the only one i trust
you will never know how you make my heart flutter and mind blank with that twinkle in your eye
you will never know how i hold you above everything and everyone else
you will never read the millions of words i have written for you, the songs i have wrote, played and sung
you will never know id do anything for you now and forever more
you will never know your the best friend i could ever ask for
you will never know how many times you have pulled me off the ledge
you will never know how much i thank you for the time we had and have together
you will never know how i will never forget even the smallest moment with you
you will never know all the times you thought i wasn't listening i only wanted to hear your voice repeat again
you will never know your the only one who has claimed my heart and how i wish it to never be returned to me
you will never know how seeing you makes my life worth living
you will never know the pain and sorrow i have seen, and for this i am thankful
you will never know how your my light scaring the boogy men away in the coldest night
you will never know you can do no wrong in my eyes, to me or against me in anyway bad enough for me to not forgive you
you will never know that your friendship is what keeps me alive
you will never know all the things i have still yet to say...
you will never know i cried tonight writing words you will never see... and you will never know even if it killed me, id leave you be if you ask and you will never know how i wish that day never comes... as it would be the end to all joy in my life.
Yours forever: T.G To my beloved: J.P
To my reader(s): thank you, and if this is my last or one of my last posts let it be one worthy of your time, my apoligys if this wasent what you expected, but i had to write it, i had to tell her even if she only learns of it years from now... keep being awesome and pony to world up eh?
Where are your stories?
353958 which ones?
353960
All of them. Also why did you remove them?
353961 i sorry friend, i think you have me confused, yes i do have stories, maybe hundreds by now all of good length of 8000-50000 words, but iv never posted anything but a few poems here and there
353962
Are your stories on another account?
353968 no one has ever read any of my story's save my editor, she keeps telling me people would like them but i write more for the enjoyment of being lost in a world i make not what i think my readers want, maybe down the road a few years ill let someone read them
353970
I definitely remember watching you because of a story you wrote.
353974 i recall you watching me because i told you buck meant fuck, or i was drunk and added a story, then removed it while still drunk, hence why people follow me
Hmm maybe. Also why are the blogs poems? I must know.
Also Skype? Or no Skype?
Hey SpikedPunch,
I'm sorry to that things are not going so well in your life. Are you going through a breakup? Reading your blog post gave me deja vu from the end of my last relationship. Grieving is definitely not a fun experience; though, things do eventually get better with time. I hope things turn around for you soon.
P.S. How's the broken arm doing?
354674 broken arm is mostly healed, but im not really sure, we broke up along time ago but shes been so close with me that it dident matter, she remained loyal and i to her, we just lost the dating label, but recently things are going more down hill and mostly because of me
354868
Well, I'm glad to hear that your arm is mostly healed.
The falling apart of a close/deep friendship can be just as painful, if not more than, as the falling apart of a relationship. By the sounds of it, its not completely over yet. Have you talked about the problems with someone else? Sometimes it helps to get a fresh outside perspective to see things one can't from the inside. If you can't find anyone and want to chat, send me a PM.
Just remember that the grief, sorrow, and pain is normal, but not permanent; time heals many wounds and these dark, gloomy clouds will eventually part to show the sun once again.
355563 keep in mind iv lost close to 30 people close to me though death, i just wrote a letter and nothing more nothing less, and its importance is less then the pixels it takes up