Writing FanFics

I don't consider myself too good of a writer. I am by no means the worst, but I am not that great either. I do, however, try to write everyday, though it is a daily reflection blog, not fanfics. The part that sucks is I have so many ideas for fanfics to write (Csquared can confirm, even if he doesn't like the idea behind a lot of them), and at times I find myself really wanting to explore an idea. I often cannot bring myself to write much. I have actually done a substantial bit of work on one fanfic, but I managed to leave most of my notes for it (which are hand written) in a different state. I will be able to go get them in a few weeks, but even once I have them, staying motivated to type them out and edit them is difficult for me.

As with every one I think of, right now I have a whole bunch of ideas that I want to address, and I managed to realize how well it would fit with a story I already wanted to write, but I also realize that I will probably write a bit of it by hand, maybe type out like a page, then I will just leave it for a while. Since writing is not much of a strength or interest in me, I don't take any time out of my day to work on it beyond my blog. I am not great at drawing either, but I do enjoy it and it has a great advantage over writing in that I can draw while talking to my friends. They both use different parts of my brain, so I don't have issues.

Honestly, I could find time to write before I got into a chat with my friends, but then the motivation comes back. I tend to be very self deprecating, so I cannot even convince myself that anyone will care about the story beyond maybe two or three friends. Yes I want to share these ideas and get feedback of peoples opinions, but I probably won't.

Anyway, I guess I just kind of wanted to vent about that.