So, it's back to reality. · 9:04pm Mar 27th, 2016
Post sub-titled: list of reasons I'm depressed. Feel free to skip.
Next week I will need to go to a recruitment agency and my anxiety has kind of kicked in because the last time I went to one was in 2008 and that was before the recession happened. It was much easier to get work before then.
The job I had lined up hasn't contacted me for 2 weeks since my health checks were cleared, despite me emailing them. I know some jobs have long security checks, but geeze...you'd TELL the person that it would take a while instead of leaving them in the dark, wouldn't you?
Beginning to doubt I will have a job to go to after all, since they don't appear to want to contact me.
The longer they take the bigger the gap on my CV, which gets harder to explain to prospective employers.
Might have to go on welfare. I tried living off my savings I had from my last job (which are now running out), because last time I went through the welfare system I nearly became suicidal. It's not like it used to be. It used to be to help people, and now they just make you feel like the scum of the earth for even daring to ask for help that yor own taxes from working subsidized. Don't believe what the shitty media tell you. Being on welfare isn't a life of luxury where we all buy flatscreen TVs or whatever. You barely get any money. Still, some money is better than none I suppose.
The depression is making it hard to get motivated, and my room is a mess. It's in a state of half-packing and half still living here with dirty tea cups and wotnot, because I feel like my life is in limbo.
At least writing helped me escape for a bit.
Edit: If anyone's interested I'm now taking art commissions. Need all the trickle I can get!
I hope everything gets better. My life has taken a down-turn, but not anywhere near as bad as yours is.
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Sorry to hear that. But I guess it not being as bad as mine is some kind of silver lining....perhaps...dunno
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I've never been very good at this whole..... comforting thing. I used to be, but not anymore. I really do hope everything gets better, and I'm sorry this has happened to you. You don't deserve it something so bad happening to you.
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Don't worry, I'm not great at it either. I used to be better at it as well, but life made me all weird and guarded. :P
I hope things get better for you too. x
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Mine isn't all that bad, so I'm sure it will, but do try to keep in mind. I know it's hard. It's always darkest before the dawn.
Breathe
As long as you keep breathing; you can still move forward
Beautiful Woolly, so sorry this is happening. Take just a little time where all you think about is organizing your space. You don't have to worry about anything else. That is what I do when I get overwhelmed and seeing the newly organized space always calms me. Really hoping something great comes your way.
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Thanks. I'm trying to do a few simple tasks at a time so I can cross them off my list. x
I hope everything soon gets better!
I definitely hope that things get better soon. And I appreciate that you share what's going on in your life alongside everything else, even when it's not good news. I just really hope things take a turn for the better.