Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock · 12:49am Mar 11th, 2016
Hi.
So... I've been absent for a little while.
Over these past couple of days, I have been taking walks to where my past had taken place. All the memorable spots in my life. Taking the time to realize everything. And every time I go to one of these places, I feel a little part of me there... a part of me which is forged into the land for all eternity...
I'll be honest... I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Why do I write? Why do I try my hardest to make people happy? It's futile.
I am one year away from adulthood... and it scares me. The reason is because I'm not ready to move on... to accept that my memories are just the past...
And all this... even on this site, I feel warm and welcomed by everyone, no matter what. But... what if I disappeared? For good?
I've met a lot of new people, and some of them came from this site! And those people became my friends... which I love... but at the same time hate... because if I were to go away, I would end up hurting them, because some of these people I've forged a true friendship with...
I-i'm going to write... eventually... but, just let me listen to the clock... so I can bring myself back to reality...
I'll be back soon...
-Loxart
Ding Dong! Ding Dong! I love bells :)
No one is ever ready to move on from childhood to adulthood, I won't be ready when my time comes but that's something I've grown to accept. You're in a confusing time in your life right now, any feelings of doubt, sadness or confusion are all natural. There's nothing I can say to heal your past, nor is there any way I can convince you that the past is just the past. What I can say is that you will always have at least one person behind you to support you in life, wether it be one of us here on the Internet or one of your close friends or family members, there will always be someone in the world that will be supportive.
You'll make it through this, what's happening is natural, just let nature take its course, it will all be ok in time. Time will heal the wounds of your past and your soul.
And remember Loxi, you'll always be my #1 fan, and I will listen no matter what. To quote a very good movie, you've got a friend in me.
Time. One of the most valuable resources to anyone. People are always asking for more time. More hours in their days, days in their years, years in their lives. Because if they had all that extra time, they could fix anything. But if you don't make the most out of every moment, you don't deserve an extra second. Don't dwell on the future loxart, or else you wont be able to experience now. As cheesy as it sounds, it is solid advice. You shouldn't worry about 'what ifs' or 'what coulds', they will just stress you out. Take it one step at a time, and cross the bridges when you get to them. Things usually fall into place, just try your best now, and great things will happen.