cri · 5:46am Oct 1st, 2015
Sometimes it's just so frustrating.
I almost never write for reasons other than personal entertainment, same as making videos on YouTube. But when I find I've made something I feel is good enough that I can post it online and have it be a niche little thing in its community, I do.
And then I go through a phase, where I'm constantly viewing how well its doing. And of all the things I've done for personal entertainment that I thought might be liked, this story has probably done the worst, and I'm irrationally freaking out about it. I know I'm a sucky writer at best. I read fanfics I wrote from two years ago and their quality is so bad I want to slap my past self. But I know I'm always so blind to faults in my fanfics.
I didn't think this story would do that well, but I thought it was such an interesting concept that had consumed my mind after watching Friendship Games, and there were a lot of Midnight Sparkle fics that were under the popular list, so I thought that even if it wasn't written as well as the other ones, the concept would pull people in just as much as other fics regarding her. It didn't look like a competing market where having so many stories about her would make it harder for liking my story amongst them, but rather a chance for writing something that was trending in the fandom.
But hardly anyone viewed it. It didn't even break a hundred views. Are you serious? Do people really share stories they liked that much more? How did the others get so popular? Was it a more interesting summary? Some strategy to getting your fic as out there as possible? I don't think my story's bad enough that one could immediately leave after the first paragraph...
How do readers pick apart the good and bad stories before they even read it and its still a new story? It seems impossible to me. I thought the good and the okay would take a bit to start seeing such large differences in view numbers...
Basically, I'm freaking out, because I feel like a failure, even though I didn't originally do this for fimfic or views but now thats all it feels like and it hurts
Doesn't help when I know less than 7 people will read this within a week's time
WHOA 8 PEOPLE SAW THIS WHAT I GOT REKT
Some times it just takes time.
3434069 In part, the existence of the blog post shows just how obsessed I am with this stuff. I literally went insane about how bad it was doing on the day it came out! By the way, I hope you enjoyed the story!
Eeeyup.