Depression spike

I've been feeling worse than usual lately. Possibly boredom.
I'm going to Summer orientation for college tomorrow. Mom and Dad asked me for information about it.
Trying to keep track of appointments and the college process stresses me more than is rational. Like, suicidal stress. My mood has fallen terribly, and I doubt I'll be able to have a healthy night.

I have gotten an editor for a story I'm planning. I refuse to publish anything without one. Now that I'm feeling awful again, my muse has died and it might take a few days to a year for me to be able to write again.