Schizotypy, Double Depression, college, and loneliness don't mix well. It's so hard to make myself get out and talk to people. And I know people aren't going to just waltz up to me and socialize...
I've been feeling worse than usual lately. Possibly boredom. I'm going to Summer orientation for college tomorrow. Mom and Dad asked me for information about it. Trying to keep track of appointments and the college process stresses me more than is rational. Like, suicidal stress. My mood has fallen terribly, and I doubt I'll be able to have a healthy night.
I don't know what I keep doing wrong. I can't write, and I can't find an editor who will give me the time. I'm just going to go back to lurking and practicing bad calligraphy.