Things... · 1:39am May 22nd, 2015
Well... I don't know what to say. School's ending soon, and although I'll feel free and great, I'll surely miss it. 
My teachers, friends, and all that. I have a Six Flags trip which I'll spend the whole day with the school on Tuesday, so that'll be fun. But yet, I don't know what to say. I mean, some strange stuff happened and went over my mind, lately...
If you never read my school blogs, please do. It explains this kind of stuff. But I did make two lists that I just, for some reason, just wanted to show out, yet when I acted like I was hiding them. The one list contained all of my crushes: like 20 girls! Why me... And the other: A hate list, or if you may, a hit list. I kinda just wrote down people I actually hate with a passion, and even wrote what I wanted to do to them. For a tall guy, I wanted to break and snap his legs... But my STEM class saw, and they just looked over it. I then wrote the lists again because they were like lost or something. And uh, next day... Everyone knew about this. Great...
'Someone' just told on snapchat about my care and love for some girls, which I feel heated up about, and the hate and fury for some people, which I have pretty intense passion building up. Considering one of the people were said to 'knock me out and kill me', just some jock. He's an ass, and trust me, I'll show my violence and my true wild side. But yeah, people talked about it, and people asked me if, for girls, if they were on my love list, and for guys, if they were on my hit list. 
Fuck me...
I'm sorry, it's just crazy and just mixed of what da hell's happening, with all of this I mean. It's crazy. I'm graduating from eighth grade next week, and I'm pretty worried. Tomorrow, I'll get an award, or possibly awards, on academic. The one obvious is perfect attendance, which I was never absent! Still, don't know. I don't know if everyone feels sorry for me, or what. If any of the girls I like actually CARE for me. Like the pretty ones and such, which are high up the ranks of popularity (of course!), and I even named my love list, 'Girls I'll Never Have A Chance Of Getting (So Ronery)'. Can I get some opinions on this? Now if you excuse me, I'll make myself cry by watching sad Thai family insurance commercials...
Which Six Flags are you going to?
Gurnee, IL! :)
man, its sounds like you need an outlet for all this pepped up rage and other feelings. I don't know what to suggest because you are so young and I don't know what you have access to, but if you ever need to talk or need to vent I'm always willing to help. and I'd be curious to see these lists of yours. (fyi, I'm incredibly open minded so don't worry about negative criticism)
3087006 Oh, it's not like I'm ultra-depressed or anything. I mean, life can be summarized up, like this: pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/498872344559878145/iM4BzYzj_400x400.png
3087019 amen to that, and I know you're not. I just thought it might help if you realesed some of those bottled up feelings
3087023 Okay. One day you might.
3087043 ok. and as far as entering high school, do something I never thought of doing back then, change your fashion style. I've only recently done it but i'm so glad I did. I suggest doing what I did and going out buying a simple/casual blazer, some nice button up dress shirts, a pair of aviators (sunglasses), a nice leather belt and gelling your hair back (this one is optional), and just walk around like a boss. It totally turns heads and gets people's attention. I tried it a couple years ago and it worked great! and I've worn the same get up almost every day since.