Some Thoughts on Bloom and Gloom

The more I see Luna going into dreams and making nightmares better, the more I wish she was real when I was a kid and suffered from night terrors. I'd like to think that she would somehow taken away the monster hunting me down and turned it into something funny.

I've never really identified with any of the elements in a CMC episodes and they have never been my favorite episodes. I never had problems making friends or been afraid of who I am. I was bullied at one point, but it never really got to me. This episode, however, made me remember an important time in my life. To me, this episode is about a loss of identity. Apple Bloom feels anxious that she doesn't really know who she is yet and is afraid of finding out. She constantly rejects herself because of what others think of her or fear of others rejecting her. Not only that, but she feels alone in this world.

There was a time in my life where I was just like Apple Bloom. I didn't really know who I was and started rejecting things that felt right, but didn't fit who I wanted to be. The idea of not knowing what I wanted or who I was terrified me because it was a time in my life where I needed to decide. When I did figure out who I was, I hid behind a mask because I feared that my friends wouldn't like the real me. I denied my sexuality and gender because that's what I thought I had to do to be liked. While it did work and I was able to keep my friends, something just didn't feel right. This trying to hide my real self exhausted me and drove me crazy. I found myself trying to keep up with my own lies just so others won't think less of me. The day came when I said no more and decided to stop being someone I'm not and start being who I want to be. I came out as an agender pansexual born male and something really surprising happened: people respected me for it. Suddenly I got closer to the people around me and they too started sharing their true self. My life got better when I decided to stop hiding and start helping others with what they're going through.

If anyone out there is hiding right now and just want to tell someone, but are afraid that you won't be accepted, please try to get over this. I know it's scary and you'll probably risk losing people, but you'll feel better about yourself and more confident and others will realize it and chain reaction will start.

To tie this back to the show, I'm really glad they're showing story progression in Babs getting her cutie mark. It really shows that they're paying attention to what they're writing and making sure it does conflict with a few other things. Also, I'm I the only one hoping Starlight was behind the dreams?