FETHING FETH FETHER FETH FETHING FETH!

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I really, really don't. I'm getting out of highschool and I'm being pulled in a dozen different fething directions and being recommended to do things by a dozen different fething sources. 'go to college and get a degree in something' 'go to college and get a welding certificate' 'go to college then enter the military, go in as an officer' 'go straight into the military' 'go into the military then into college' 'go into the military and don't sell yourself short on where you can go'
doesn't help I gotta find a job this summer and I'm trying to get into the tabletop game for warhammer.
Sacred Feth I don't know what the Feth I'm doing sometimes. Feels like I got 10 people pulling on me to go into 10 different ways in life.
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Yeah I gotta stop reading Gaunt's Ghosts, next thing you know I'll start using gak.
still the point stands about me not knowing what the fuck I'm doing, I suppose that's why the military has such an allure, I've talked and read about a lot of people that joined up to get some fething direction in life and they all say it was one of the best things they did, really gave'em a direction.
But I don't have a direction now that I think about it. My goal kinda just ends at the military... maybe I could go for life service?
decisions, decisions, motherfucking decisions........ didn't use feth there because that doesn't work. I'm serious about the feth thing, I've caught myself using it in conversation.
What brought this on? I hear you ask. Well tonight a parent ran into a teacher I greatly respect and of course the two struck up a conversation, parent told teacher about what I planned to do (go into military and work my way up) and teacher said I might not like it at grunt level, that I maybe should go for something higher and shouldn't sell myself short. And coming from this teacher that had some weight. This guy is a former member of the military and was one of the most enjoyable and educational teachers I've ever had, and I greatly respect him. So hearing that from him... I mean I've heard it from my parents too, but with them its sort of like what they're supposed to say, ya know? So now I'm just remembering all this crap that's hanging above my head like a bloody sword of Damocles, when I'd much rather be just sitting and relaxing like I'm supposed to do on Spring Break. Like I know there is no sense in worrying about it at this point but feth I'm just so fething lost at this point.
Sorry to drag any of you people down with that. go back to what you're doing.