feelings

Total loneliness, honestly I never realized just hoe lonely I was. Till I lost the person. The only person that cared for me. Its a feeling on its own that. That I hate. Everything looks different and honestly I don't like it. Its hard for me to go out and do things. Being the person I am. I want to make people smile and laugh but how. How when I can't even do that my self. I feel like everything I do is just such a east of time. That I'm not going anyways. That I'm suck in this rut. I always hated being that one guy that was going to end up alone. And thro my fault. I've become him. I want to do all these amazing things. But. Its just so hard to continue. I hate living in the past. But everyday It like I can't move on. I can't.