Venting, Read at Your Own Discretion

So yeah, I haven't been feeling my best lately. A month into 2015 and life keeps punching me in the stomach even more. I mean, in a way things are a bit better than they were, but it still doesn't feel like it. Ever just feel really insignificant about yourself, and that makes you question why you bother? That's how I usually am. It doesn't help that I don't feel very needed or accepted by my "friends." I usually just sit alone with my thoughts, which often build and go in very negative ways. Things just haven't been very easy for a long time now, and life is starting to give less and less options to make it better.

Sorry, I just needed to get that out. Happy 400 blog posts.

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[OneLonelyPickle]

I know that feel man. I've always been searching for someone who needs me... it's hard to describe. So far I think I have a good BFF that's like this but outside of that... no dice. It's hard. I'm introverted and not terribly good at making friends (unless I'm liquored up and in a public setting but that doesn't happen often) so I don't know about your certain situation, but for me it's like everyone just doesn't "need" me. And as far as relationships go that's all I really need. Someone who needs me. I just seem to encounter people that could care less. Sigh.

By the way how old are you? Because if you're still in high school I wouldn't worry too much about "life" in general. If you're past that well keep on working, making that bank, and work on taking more risks when it comes to social interaction. Just go out there and give no fucks. That's what I'm working on. The more people you know the better chance you have of finding true friends, after all. And on that note, just be yourself. Sure adapting to certain circles makes you more "acquaintances", but after a lot of thought I realized it's much more worth it for people like me to just be ourselves and make true friends other than try to adapt to different types of people we can't really enjoy being around.