My childhood his ruined forever. · 2:15am Jan 11th, 2015
Real fast, IMSCAR0EDOFCLoWNSANDCRiCKEtSANDTHdARK.
I just found out the the best anime movie of my childhood othr than Ponyo, My eighbor totoro, was secretly about death. And Totoros, the cute things that I always wanted to lend an umbrella, meet, hug, ect. where angels of death. I firmly told theinformant that I can't wait to die then and rushed off before crying. I am locked in my room, the angel is still there outside, and I am about to set up a vamera and basically FNa this bitch. Its holding a picture of laughing jack right now in one hand, and I would rather not sa what the other hand is doing. I have a monitor to watch it over until my friends and I can use a sledgehammer on it. Killing a stone angel with a sledgehammer would be dangerous, but with friends it would be watched while someone hits it.
Is this about me somehow? Also, to quote Mazerunner, "Of you ain't scared, you ain't human."
2714468 I am waiting for my mom to get me the second book, how the hell does this have to do wth you? I looked out the window and it flipped me off whilst holdinga picture of laughing jack, I read the title of the cp you submitted, and flipped out to fucking hell. I am surprised that I am not literally nervously ticking, like a clock as I do when I am upet immensely. I also am not talking to you shuck face, for lack of a better MR swear. I am so pissed off at you, just be glad that I am not finding where you live and bringing all the daring jumping spiders in my house and releasing them into your room. They aren't harmful, but they are startling. Also very pretty fangs, sometimes multicolored. If I were a bro, I would be calling you such a fucking barrel, versus my being a boot. I am now foced to watch pewds daily, and am worried that I will eventually turn into a bro. If I do, find me and kill me. Or post lotsa pics of clowns of creepyness. That might snap me out of it.
2714508 You got me to shudder. I can see the rest of my week going swimmingly.
I can see your a bit pissed right now, so I'll just walk away. Starting to think posting that Ronald McDonald pic wasn't such a good idea.
2714514 No shit sherlock! *covers mouth*
2714514 No shit sherlock! *covers mouth* Glad you aren't preparing a rant for me about my suicidal urges. If you do, I will read it, probably take the advice. I gotta bandage some cuts...
2714587 I'm not making a rant. I'm reminding you of the time you were leaving FiMFiction. Although it may not seem like it at the moment, what with the clown of nightmares, I do care for you, Luna, and knowing you were suicidal and seeing you've been offline for a day, a week, a month, I couldn't take it.
2714610 How are you possibly reminding me of when I prepared to leave FiM? What does that have to do with suicide? Why are you using your other account? Where the hell are those bandages?
2714610 How are you possibly reminding me of when I prepared to leave FiM? What does that have to do with suicide? Why are you using your other account? Where the hell are those bandages?Also, Where? Blankety blank blank( Trying not to hurt you as I hurt everyone near or dear or close to me as per usual)
2714639 I think you blocked me. Or my iPad's being weird. Anyway, I was drawing the comparison between you leaving the site, and you leave the world. I only know you through Fimfic, so they're pretty much the same thing.
2714643 My kindle is being weird, you might want to try on this account but I didn't block you. Anyways, I pretty much don't exsist in the world, I mean nobody notices when I do aything, or even that I exsist. I don't belong, I dont socialise, and when I try I just hurt others. Theres a reason my FaF OC is the lost animatonic,my OCs usually have powers over the shadows. Its the only place that I belong. * Melts into wall shadows* If you'll excuse me... I really need the goddamned badaids!...
2714655
Then do something incredible.
43 people think otherwise.
Then find someplace where you do.
Care to explain?
And there's a reason my OC is a human wearing a mask to hide the truth.
Listen, I don't know or care who the world sees you as, Luna, because I can see you for what you really are. I see a beautiful, fourteen-year-old girl with too much to deal with, and knowledge beyond what her age should allow. You're funny, you're clever, you're a great friend. Don't listen to anyone who tells you otherwise, because they're wrong.
I wish I were there, I wish I could say this to your face. But I can't. It frightens me how helpless we all are, really. Because, at the end of the day, we picked up the gun, not the world. We used the knife, not the ones who didn't want to see true beauty. We took the pills, not the ones we used to call friends. Make your choice, Luna. Change the world around you, or live in your sadness forever.
Is beauty really that bad a thing?
2714681 How am I supposed to do somwthing incredible? I have no talents. There is nowhere that I belong, I would already be there. I have no filter. The hurtful things I say dont even go through my mind. I dont mean to hurt them but I do. Why else would they leave me? I have nothing important to say, I just spew air, and if I'm in a good mood, think that its worth looking at. I spam all of my followers with shit. Care to name your OC? I now a few who hide behind a mask, mine would too but I already do RL. I should just walk away right now, but if I do I will have lost another friend. I push people away. My only friends are my followers on a site that is full of porn involvingkid show characters. Its no woner that other than fim and my one friend IRL, my only friends are the cartoons and video games I play. I hide behing my door because I won't be accepted, don't know what to talk about, don't know anything. I love to sing, but I cannot. I am shunned by those who would call me a friend. The only friend I have that I know IRL may have her problems, but accepts me with mine. I have accepted the fact that I am worthless. Again, care to name your OC?
2714729 My OC's name is Jerrard, from my Now You See story.
Luna, I'm doing my best to stay composed. There is nothing I can do for you right now. There is nothing that I, or anyone on this site can do that will affect you. If you can't see anything beautiful about yourself, get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer. You're talented beyond anyone I've seen, know that that's a truth, but you have to find what you're good at yourself. Some of us know the answer, but telling you would defeat the purpose.
Damnit, Luna, I've been there, I still am there. Never forget that there is somewhere out there where you can be accepted. Never forget, like I did.
So much blood.
2714758 I was listening, but then the end screwed it. What? I do not understand. I just want to be left alone, I know you are trying to help me, but why are you so persistent? Understand that I know the truth about myself. I don't need a mirror to see that I cannot do anything. What do you mean you know? Look, I can't do art, can't write or say words, can't sing, can't help people. I am failing in all my classes, I want to be a forensic scientist but I can't. I am constantly ridiculed, bullied. Yesterday I was beat up. Yesterday I was thinking about Gravity Falls, and my geometry teacher drew a triangle on the board with two lines out very angle making it look like it had arms and legs. He called on me, I looked up, and I screamed "OH MY GOD ITS BIL CIHER RU OR HE WILL KILL U!!!" After school, two of my used to be friends who understood how useless I am beat me up, told me how I was useless. What they said made sense. I am a useless nerd, too obsessed with shows to notice the world around me. The world is falling around me. I just want everyone to be happy... What does it matter if I am not?
2714795 I understand. You've made your choice. I'll leave you alone.
2714811 Thank you. *Glances out the window* Shit!Angel moved. I hope I am halucinating. If not, looks like the angel is going to end things for me. I really need some bandages for the cuts the bitches gave me yesterday, already got one on the worst of them, and an ice pack on my temple where they hit me. *trembles* remind me... never watch gravity falls again...*finds bandaids* Finally! Now as long as I don't get killed by the angel I should be fine. Glad nobody cares enough to comment on my OC blog, I dont know why I bothered. Just don't let me watch gravity falls ever again, okay? Maybe then the bullying will stop...