A Troubled Mind In Troubled Times

Story Update
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Nothing new to really report on it. I am sad to say that this is my issue, I have so many thoughts and things going on around me that I have trouble gaining motivation. I am doing my best attempt at writing some of chapter 2, although it is a bit difficult since I am trying to incorporate a lot of information into it. Though I know if I do too much I will overwhelm some if not many... and if I do too little then I will be frustrated that I didn't put enough into it. Ugh, woe is me!

I think what I shall do is do some short-stories on the side until I get enough motivation to write. The ideas are there, they are even on paper, so as to stare at me, to taunt me, to relish in my dismay of not using them. So the creativity is about, always... just a lack of energy to place them. Lingling is still being continued, just being a slow-poke in providing more chapters, and I hate it, please forgive me!

Moving on!

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Journal!
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So, here is the main issue that I know I'm probably having in wanting to write. One, I am still, sadly, without a job. Although if things work out I shall be having a 3rd shift job by Friday... I am hoping... because If I don't then you won't hear from me for like another month or two... Just working myself to get centered. I really want to write Lingling's story, although I am just not finding the time to really focus on what I've written for ideas. Which is bizarre sounding, I know. I have the ideas but I am not writing them, what-the-buck, Right?

Well assuming things work out and I get myself situated with a couple pay-checks, I just know that my worrisome brain will finally go... oh, well, now that you aren't thinking about what to do for survival and monies... how about you go do that story again, oh I got some great ideas! *Bonk!* It seems to be how it rolls out of me. I feel sad that I am not writing all the ideas I've pounded out either... I think though... no... I feel that once I release Chapter 2 with details of this addled individual... you, as in the reader, will be happy and be like... yay, it was worth the wait... or at least that is what I hope.

Oh, who am I kidding? When you read Chapter 2 you are going to be like... I waited this long fo-for this!? This is crap! You are crap and should feel bad!

Although, side note, I may feel bad from the way Chapter 2 will be heading... let alone Chapter 3 and 4.. oh my gawd... I've also noticed I've become closer to... uh, my feelings since my brainstorming campaign, earlier this month.

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Quick Review!
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1.) Lingling is still continuing, I am just being; slow, lazy, unmotivated, and a wee-bit stressed in life's circumstances.
2.) I am still unemployed and flustered by it... :/
3.) I don't know you, but I think you are awesome! ^_^
5.) No wait...
4.) I hope you all enjoyed this blog.
5.) And I hope you all have a happy new-year and follow your instincts, your dreams, make the impossible practical and achieve what others say you cannot!

You shall have your story, once I get my fat-ass off the ground!

HeavensRaptor = Jared

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Random
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HeavensRaptor sits in front of his computer, eyes a-glow with the machines eerie light. Finished with his ramblings of nonsense and feelings of self importance. He turns from the computer, after listening to much music to calm his under-used mind. It's trivial thoughts being put aside as the music works it's way into the crevices of the brain. The negative energy and thoughts that bothered him, pushed aside to allow just one thing.
Breath.
Oh dire is the air we breathe, yet it seems so quick to leave.
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Okay, I had fun with my brain being.. uhm, weird. Have a good one everyone!