Something New? · 7:36am Sep 4th, 2014
...Hm. Is it a good or a bad thing to write a new blog post after over a year of absence with no real plans for the future? I think it's not a bad idea. I do have a few things to say, if it even matters now.
I'm no longer numbering these or doing my old format because I want to disassociate myself from my old self. I posted some things I'm not proud of for sure, and I don't want it to seem like I'm continuing that chapter of my life. I don't want to be a writer anymore. At least... not a novelist or a fan fiction writer. No. That's not my forte. I'm definitely interested in storytelling and ideas, but I can't do this literature thing. I'm more of a television or musical writer. I get too many good ideas that aren't pony related and I never want to shoehorn the show into them just so I can take advantage of this great site and community of like minded individuals and to get myself more known. I like it here, but I can't work here. I write songs, I think of comics and storyboards for huge animated projects (even though I can't draw or anything, but that's another issue) and I put together all kinds of videos. I thought it would be easy to try to take on another entertainment medium such as this, but I was wrong. As easy as it is for me to play the piano, it's just as hard as me trying to write a good story as it is for someone else to play the piano. I know I want to create things. I guess it comes down to talent.
You see, I've always wanted critical approval. I've seen people like the staff on the show and the top musicians and comedians in the fandom and wanted to be one of those people. I feel like if I don't do something soon, I'll miss my moment. I wanted to represent this community, to be someone highly important, someone people looked up to. A leader. That's not a good reason to create art. At least not alone. You have to have a point. Something to offer. But I expect too much out of too little. And It seems like I lack the strength and time to make all my ideas a reality. I remember some of them were good. I had something. But quite often it's hard to differentiate between good ideas and social anxiety. I'd give up on things with promise, and pursue things with none, and the grief of that all betraying any of my ambitions. I may have put too much value on destiny and self-importance, and ignored reason.
Critical approval is always nice, but starting out with the expectation of greatness is setting yourself up for failure. Writing should be something you do because you enjoy it, not because it will get you well known. (that is just a side effect.)
Do what makes you happy, whether it is in this fandom or another, don't let illusions of grandeur get between you and enjoying your passions.
In an unrelated topic, where do I know you from. I followed you a while back, and don't remember exactly what prompted it.
2426861 I'm glad I can finally move on.
I wouldn't have the slightest idea why you followed me. Thanks though.
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Hmm. Strange.