A Revelation, Of Sorts · 8:12pm Apr 14th, 2014
So, as you all know, I'm a brony. I mean, you are following me, a foolish, amateurish, sophomoric amateur "author" on an entirely MLP related fanfiction site. If you didn't realize I was a brony, god help you.
Well, what you may not know is that I'm a heavily closeted (not sexual orientation related) brony. I mean, I find it easier to display this side of me on a site where I remain an anonymous face whom you all only know as the author of such prodigious work as Fallout: Equestria: Barney's Comin' To Town and... other, than going out into the terrifying world out there and face the dogma and criticism that so many of you do. Of the probably thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of people on this site, 3 know me in real life, Cadeyyz, Trebax, and Tim The Enchanter. I believe 2 others, who aren't bronies themselves, know of this interest of mine. Up until today, I admit, I thought I was ashamed of my like for this show.
Yep, I'll say it again for the 8 of you who'll read this and think, "My god he's a long winded little prick. Why would I care if you didn't like liking the show?": I, The Baldraug666, otherwise known as Chris, Hated himself for his interest in this show. I had thought, numerous times, about confessing to family or friends, but thought they'd reject me. *Chuckles* I've even had to take some rather anti-brony positions in front of my parents for fear they'd find out.
But today I watched some videos on bronydom(ism?) and I came to the realization that I shouldn't be afraid of my likes and dislikes. Everyone I know personally knows I'm a total LOTR nerd, and I'm not ashamed, but with this I'm constantly paranoid about little things like how I'd explain leaving a pony thread up on my computer, or why a fanfiction site (this one) is bookmarked. And it's caused me to realize I've been lying to myself.
I told myself I was embarrassed about liking this show so I would feel that I'd be, I dunno, exempt from the dogma that others within the fandom have received, regardless of the fact that, seeing as no one knows, no one would persecute me. But that's Complete Fucking Bullshit, or CFB. I am not ashamed of my adoration for the children's show My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic. I simply fooled myself so that I could feel safe inside a little bubble of fear, thinking, "well if I don't like that I like it, people can't hate me for liking it, right?"
*sighs* I guess I let other people's opinions get to me. I do love the show, and my fantabulous followers. But, I'm a fucking coward. Nothing's gonna change. I'm not going to tell anyone else. But at least I won't feel as guilty now for my little pastel equine indulgences.
Thanks for paying attention, folks. I'm sure many of you don't care, and rightfully so, this was just some boring ass rant about my perceived problems in which I'm sure I sounded like a whiny little bitch, but thanks again.
God, I'm an asshole
And yes, I'm still working on stuff. It'll probably all be crap anyway, so don't get your hopes up.
"My god he's a long winded little prick. Why would I care if you didn't like liking the show?"
Srs, tho, datz gr8 m8, id r8 8/8
Thanks... I think...? I don't speak "8"
FUCK YOU YOU LONG-WINDED KNUCKLEF
CK
I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA COME OUT UNTIL THE END THERE
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I'm not a big fan of how “come out" sounds... :/
But I thank you for introducing me to "knucklefuck". I'll make sure to use it often
And sorry, mate, but as it said, I'm still afraid of the stigmata I'd receive, from my own damn family, too. I accept my love of the show, so I don't hate myself over it. Perhaps someday, I'll tell. But not today.
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well isnt someone a unique butterfly
2011947
It's always new and refreshing 
One of the few things I like about you, you asshole, is the evolution of your insults.