I'm going away guys... · 1:01am Mar 12th, 2014
It finally caught up to me, the depression. I want my life to change, I want to feel normal again. I want to smoke weed to enjoy it, not to have it a a crutch. I want to write again with clarity in my head. I want a lot of things in my life, but dealing with six years of depression and suicidal thoughts, I'm worn out and I need help. Professional help. There isn't anything in the world I want more than to feel okay again. This has gone on too long, and I need to move on but I can't not if i'm smoking everyday to be somebody else. Somebody who isn't depressed, somebody who can be happy. Weed does work as an anti-depressant, very well too. However it was a crutch for me especially. I have untreated depression that I was self-medicating to get rid of. That's not healthy, that's just me putting it off. It's just me using a block to feel better, when really it fades away and the feelings do always return. I will never be able to enjoy a moment sober if I don't do something about it. So I'm going to rehab, and there things will get sorted out. Wish me luck, I'm pretty scared to do this, but I want to be better.
Do it man, this is good for you. If nobody else says this, know that we believe in you here.
You can do it, sweet prince.
Rehab, huh?
good luck man. get well soon.
i am glad your doing this and for some minor help go to youtube and look up Onision he helped me so i dident get depressrd along with has actuly saved someone from killing them selves. get better soon prince
never stop trying bro, just do what you can do.
hey man good luck. well hang out when you get back
Good bye for now. I hope to hear from you again sometime.