raison d'être

I'm just venting here, because it feels horrible to vent over on Ponychan, mostly because I'm way to 'srs bsns' for any other outlet then /fic/ anymore.

I'm melancholic at the moment. All my actions are for naught, it's affecting my enjoyment of things I normally would like, and at the end of the day, I don't even care that much.
It makes trying to be happy and kind really hard to pull off. Lately I just want to curl up in a ball for some reason.

But, it doesn't really matter, anyone can see.