Very Short and Important Blog Post Since I Don't have much time

Hey everybody if it hasn't come to you guys yet I got smacked upside the head by writer'sblockitis. And warning I swear a lot at four am. Note to self- take that silly writing rule of mine throw it in the woodchipper (damn Fargo reference) and inject more swearing into my stuff. Definitely make it more of a hoot to write. I still think I shouldn't try sex scenes but you guts never know. (So if I put some form of weird sex scenes in my stories at least you'll be warned. I learned my lesson the first time. I might even start uploading my crazy ass grimdark story that really is just me letting off steam sooner or later. I have become a better writer. Really some of the earliest stuff there is almost 10 months old. And based on Cupcakes. And makes Flutershy completely batshit insane. I swear you guys I love Fluttershy I just love breaking the Cuties way too much to not do it. Which I don't get the full joy out of since Cupcakes tries way too hard with the whole mood thing. And I am totally desensitized to grimdarks I actually laugh like a headcase while reading them. Writing something like that is a whole other story.)

Pretty much saying that if you see a new story from me anytime right after July 12 (12th-19th or really anytime before then since I might totally try to give it to them today.) it is nothing new. And I know the first few chapters suck. And if they reject it somehow I will find a way to give to you lovable dudes. They are old enough that I was still trying to get a writing style. So they suck balls and you see why I still see Sweetie x Doctor Whooves as a completely plausible pairing in that universe. (Completely plausible and completely fucked up.) Refer to my story Chaos and Corruption's Chapter's that take partially in Ponyville. Yes that would be me toning down what Let me just say I never was able to actually explain what the actual fuck was going on plotwise and why Equestria became a crapsack world because a very hostile commenter left a few scathing remarks about my writing. And I had planned for all the different ponies to have a chapter to themselves about how the whole serial killer thing took to them. And yes I know the Killer Rarityverse stories. I didn't even know they existed back then. They probably fucking didn't exist back then. Edit: I checked. It didn't so don't ask me again.)

Reasons why I haven't fucking updated

Reasons why: Number 1- I have no sleep schedule anymore. And no sane writing schedule (I learned that after I drank 7 cans of mountain dew in the span of an hour writing my newest story. I was so hyped up on caffeine that I didn't feel tired for 3 days.)

Reason 2- I have my moods of pretty low moods. In real life I am pretty much antisocial and I almost know that I have major depression.

Reason 3- I am going to have surgery. That kills most of my happy moods. Like really I am pissed the fuck off right now. The surgery is for a good reason

Reason 4- I am almost always in pain. (You try to have things majorly fucked up throughout both of your legs and one arm and think back and joint pain don't result.)

Reason 5- I hate hospitals and doctors with a passion. (Because of them, I have a strange irrational fear of the sound of any kind of saw.)

Reason 6- I write so slow anyway that it sucks when my stories get popular cause of time restraints.

Reason 7- I don't like fucking up. Like any time ever. Try having an overbearing mother. Put that in my writing and the whole TS;AS month long hiatus issue I've been whining about makes sense. I don't want to fuck up my story for you guys.

Final Reason- I barely ever write anyway. A chapter that you so want = about three hours of writing. College pays off bitches. Besides any chapter that is in my crossovers (Try actually writing 6000 words. Try it. It sucks. Therefore I think the writers that somehow get out chapters that are 30,000-40,000 words are on drugs or are completely insane in a sort of good way.)

That's it. I need to get back to reading Diaries of a Madman. I need inspiration and I turn to long stories to get inspiration. Really I do or I wouldn't plan on bringing 6 books by Stephen King (The Eyes of the Dragon, The Bachman Books- I had a nerdgasm when I found this gem cause it contains one of the hardest to find books in his writings...Rage. I guess it is because it outlines a school shooting in the eyes of the perpetrator. This sucks for most of the world since because of an actual school shooting- see here for details and the book is now only found in Goodwills. I have been searching for years. Now I just need Different Seasons- the collection where Apt Pupil is contained and I can get the hardest to find King stories. Cause that story totally has a similar idea except it involves an ex-Nazi officer.- - Firestarter, Pet Semetary, Cujo, and It. )

Yeah if you guys haven't figured out yet...my mind is totally drawn to weird creepy shit. So yes I am so happy right now wading through Diaries of a Madman. Only spent a day straight reading and I am almost halfway done. And I am giggling like a little girl because of the crazy shit going down. Well I'm off to send in an application for a new story. Ish. Newish,